A lot to say but   2018 1st cancer ,full big op,Radiotherapy 2020 diagnosed again at routine face to face appointment (Thank you nhs)since then had all the tests which came back positive. Also 2x operations to try and cut out .The 1st didn't work .As it stands now waiting on results for 2nd op,which was done 2 weeks ago .I have a appointment in another 3 weeks with my surgeon. Thing is dont think I am coping in the waiting game again .Would it be wrong to ring maybe his secretary or my nurse to see if there was any results. During these 2 ops have had great difficulty drinking and eating the small amount I would manage over the last 4 years .I cannot have anymore Radiotherapy, so my next if needed only operation would  involve making a new jaw out of the bone in my leg ,with the possibility of never again being able to drink or eat again .If it comes to this very unsure if I will do .Its been hard enough the last 4 years taking away my quality of life .Advise ring or not  ,this all been going on since Oct 2020 .The day it was confirmed was the same date I had my operation 1st time round .Thank you .I am on the very edge now ,shaking and twitching  and very withdrawn .Thank you again