Occupying my mind

I had a GP appointment for breast pain this morning and they found a lump. It was unexpected but they reassured me that it feels like a cyst and considering my age (21) it probably is. I'm being referred within 2 weeks just to confirm. 
 

Although I know it's very likely a cyst, I can't help but wonder the worst. I have health anxiety anyway so this is a bit of a nightmare! 
 

I've been trying to process my emotions rather than just distract myself but I keep *feeling* it in my breast. I know it's probably some placebo but it just feels heavier now I know that it's there. It's reached a point where I don't think I can take a shower tonight because I would get incredibly stressed and anxious possibly feeling it (despite not noticing it before).
 

Does anyone have any advice for this? Feels like I'm losing it and all I want is a shower!!

  • Hey, hope you're ok. Do you have your appointment date yet? 

  • I've definitely been trying to stay away from all the information booklets at the moment! Even though it's very likely a cyst I just know the stress reading anything else would cause me... 

    I always find it worse at night when there's nothing else to think about, but my partner's very understanding which has been really helpful. I'm also a student so actually sitting down and doing my work has been productive and distracting! Although, quite a lot of it involves reading about cancer treatments which doesn't help :laugh:

    Still no appointment date yet but hoping to hear this week. 

    What about you? Are you managing well?

  • I'm glad you're staying busy and distracted! I actually got a call this afternoon, my appointment is on Friday, which feels very quick as my referral was last Thursday. I feel a mix of relief that I don't have to wait much longer, but also worry that it'll only be a few more days until I know whether it is or isn't bad news. I hope you get your appointment soon! 

  • Great that you've got your appointment date! I understand it's definitely mixed feelings. At least then you'll know what's going on rather than all of the "what ifs" of waiting.

    Fingers crossed it's good news :)

  • Hi there,

    Hope you don't mind me asking, but how did it go? Not too stressful or uncomfortable I hope :happy:

    I'm assuming you haven't got any results yet, but do you know when you'll hear back?

    Turns out my appointment's been booked for this coming Thursday so I'm glad to finally have a date.

    (Obviously, if you're not comfortable talking about it or just not yet, then please don't feel you have to reply)

  • Hello! Actually I got my results there and then, just an examination, the doctor located the lump, and then did an ultrasound where she told me there and then that it was just a mass of a tissue (which I assume is a fibroadenoma like the gp suspected?) and said it was absolutely nothing to worry about! I felt super weirded out afterwards as I had convinced myself of the worst. It was actually really quick, once I got seen as the clinic was running 40 minutes late which didn't help my anxiety! Please let me know how you get on on Thursday! Hope you are doing OK with the wait. X 

  • That's great news, you must be so relieved! Glad it's nothing serious. So good that you were able to find out there and then too.

    I'm just looking forward to getting it done and out of the way now! :laugh: Hoping that I get to find out there as well to minimise any worrying.

     

     

  • Hi AimeeLou,

    Glad to see you received good news! I had my appointment today. I had an ultrasound and a biopsy. They found a fibroadenoma but they also saw a lump deeper down which they hadn't felt so they decided to take a biopsy. They think it may be a cyst as it appeared to deflate a bit after the biopsy but they've sent it off to pathology anyway to be sure. Now it's just the agonising wait for the results! 
    I'm somewhat reassured by what they said but I dont think I'll sleep properly until I've been given the all clear - plus the fact my boob is rather tender  

    Good luck for your appointment Holly x