Kelbel80

I'm the one that if it's going to go wrong it will!!

So far I've had a change if consultant because mine is ill....so surgery should have been Nov 9th at a hospital in Grantham...... that's changed location too. Now going to be at a different hospital.  And because of this damned Covid no hubby allowed to support me by being there. 

I'm scared too....... up and down like a yoyo. Alright one minute and balling my eyes out the next 

I started this journey 29th Sept, booked in for surgery Nov 11th.  

How in Gods name I am  going to walk into that hospital alone next Wednesday us anyones guess. 

Stay strong.

#allinittogether xxxx

it was probably better for them to do the mammogram as well. they have different pictures from different imaging then. i have 2 children as well. 3yr old with suspected autism and 5yr old who is completely hyper. im 32. i just feel like they seem to push us to the back because of our age. im so annoyed with it. At least you know a bit of whats happening in your body now and it can be dealt with. im sure its going to take you a while for it to sink in though x

I know tbh I felt like that a bit. But I kept calling people to get sooner appointments. And glad I did now to. 


but my first appointment was just a breast exam then referred for ultrasound which they did everything else at. 
 

How are u feeling? Try not to stress to much we can't all be unlucky like me xxxx

they say 1 in 10 people that go in for tests i think. it just annoys me really. 9 months waiting for an appointment. so ridiculous. hopefully now the health minister is involved i will actually get somewhere though

Not as far as I know. I'm due at the hospital Tuesday for an injection of some radioactive material into the boob that has the lump. . Then they take a sample of the lymph nodes during the op

#allinittogether xxx

How did you get on? 

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Thank u, it's strange cause during my ultrasound he found a irregular lymph node so he took biopsy of that and the other lumps. Let me know how u get on.

I feel like life is so unfair atm. Xxx

It certainly is....

I'm in bits!! Sitting at my kitchen table...balling my eyes out...watching the sun come up.

I know I have to do this....I'll die if I dont!!

But I cant see my children or my grandchildren before the OP. And I'm missing my dad.... so much. 

I'm trying so hard to  be positive, but its not working. I keep telling myself I'm lucky I found the lump and did something about it... but have I found it in time? Why didnt I notice it before, what if its spread? Am I over reacting? Am I looking at scenarios that dont exist?

Why is this happening to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? I'm so scared....

It's such a beautiful sunrise too.........

#allinittogether xxxxx

I know I've been up since 4:30 today but tbh barely slept... I'm still in shock/disbelief.

we will both get through this! I'm here when ever u need me. Even if it just to rant at. Trust me I get it. 
 

and I feel the same why us? It's not fair. 

xxx

Tashag86

Oh bless you...4.30am I'm sure theres a song that says " the darkest hour is just before dawn"..... I have no trouble going to sleep...but if I wake up in the early hours? That's it. For a couple of mins you're fine and then Boom! It's there and that's sleep out of the window. 

This blasted toe is doing my head in too! I told them about it at my appt....just in case it gets infected..but the nurse said its badly bruised. I think it's broken tbh. Shouldnt be pain like this day after day. Had a pack of frozen peas on it last night, then went to bed in socks.  Woke me at 6am...... sat on the sofa now with it raised up on a bean bag. If it's no better tomorrow when I go for my covid swab then I'm going to nip in to A&E.

I swear it never rains without it pours 

So appreciate your reply and support. Thank you

#allinittogether xxx