Embop enjoy anything you want and worry about thevweight later. I’ve started on tamoxifen and gained weight but needs must. I’m trying to be more active but like you I’m more interested in the wine and donuts.

Loving the positive pants!! Glad you’re recovering well xxxx

Hello lovely ladies . 

Well im awake with my my mind in overdrive so thought I would get you up to date. 

Had results of my biopsy on Wednesday .. felt sick all day and appt not til 5 pm . Grade 3 oestrogen negative her2 positive, plan at minute is chemo first( with Herceptin) then surgery then radiotherapy . Did feel better once I knew the plan.

Had MRI with contrast this morning .. only got phone call to go yesterday.. hate being enclosed as needed one a few years ago on my knee and couldn’t do it!! This one was better open ended and went in feet first .. as my head was close to the opening I was happier .. still don’t like then though ! Then back at same hospital this evening for a CT with contrast . 

Next appt is ECG on 11/11 and consultant 2 days later for results. 

Now I feel in limbo again .. knowing that someone somewhere will know wether it has spread.. I’ve got this awful feeling it has and am worrying again .

we have told everyone apart from my 20 year old son , he has Cerebral palsy, learning difficulties and also deaf so we communicate via sign language . Sometimes I think we should tell him and other times think we should leave it until we need to( like when I start chemo and things will change) we have made up reasons for going out when going to the last few appts. I’ve had lots of cards that I have had to hide from him and flowers and gifts from friends and colleagues which he must be wondering about He can’t be left alone so someone has to come to stay with him when we are out . 

Hi janey!

so sorry to hear this. At least you know what you’re dealing with now as hard as it is.

its just nerves again worrying it’s spread. I’ve been the same now for the run up to my oncology appointment and I’ve just found a new lump in my armpit.

you might have to tell him soon but you could always play it down a lot so it doesn’t seemso scary for him. 

I hope you managed some sleep, sounds like you’ve had a crazy week xxx