terrified waiting for test found large breast lump

Im sitting here just in a dreadful terrified state, thinking what about my kids and my partner,,its my daughters wedding in two days and I just found out I need an urgent mammagram etc I found a large lump saw the GP and her face said it all the lump is big and obvious and I sort of hoped she would say 'lump what lump' but she went right to it and said it was large and needed seeing urgently.

Im scared stiff and its going to be weeks really before I know how bad this is..OH god how can I get through the next few weeks and the wedding acting normal I cant tell the kids certainly not my daughters and ruin the wedding but I have to pull myslef through it all and do my job and look like it is such a happy time when truth is I just keep crying and wanting to screem and run!!!!

what the hell do I do

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  • Hi

    ive had to have another biopsy, the vacume one this time. I’m all bruised, but trying to think, it can only be a good thing that the first one didn’t show anything up. 

    The waits awful though... another week till I get an answer from this biopsy .

    take care 

    sudi

  • Oh no its such a horrible waiting game, i thought thats what would happen to me, and id be demanding some sort of answer, what do they mean by not a definate result? It must be hard to take in, but im glad it gives you some hope.

    Ive upset quite alot of friends and family with my news.. its sad to see that 1 person having cancer can effect soo many.. its lovely to know they care but i dont want to worry anyone. I feel its important for me to talk about it though, and to explain to people whats going on.

    I feel so grateful but yet so sad. 

    Can anyone advise me on mastectomy? Its likely i will need a double one but likely to be one at a time, will it hurt more then a c-section !! It was horrible enough when i had one of those, the pain and recovery after omg!!

    I think that worries me the most at the moment..

    Xx 

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    Hi Michelle,

    I am sorry to hear about your diagnosis. I have had breast cancer twice in the past 9 years. The first time I had a lumpectomy followed by Tamoxifen for 1 year. Second time around i had a double mastectomy followed by Letrozole for 6 years. I stopped taking this in July 2017.

    I honestly found my double mastectomy easier than having the lumpectomy. I had both sides done at once and recovered from this sooner than I did from my lumpectomy. I found it difficult to find anyone to talk to about a double mastectomy, as the majority of people only have a single one. I have never had a C section to compare this to, but I suspect that it would be a lot worse than this.

    I did have to have my breasts drained, as I had a couple of bouts of fluid build up. Is there a particular reason why you think that it is likely that you will only have one breast done at a time? I had no bother at all with having both done at once.

    I didn't have reconstruction as I have had previous non-cancer related surgery on the usual donor sites. Still, I manage well with a selection of prostheses for different occasions. I still go swimming and go to the gym regularly.

    I hope that all goes well for you and, if I can be of any help, please just ask.

    Please keep in touch and let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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    Hi Sudi,

    I am sorry to hear that you have had to have another biopsy and now another anxious week's wait. As you said, it can only be a good thing that your previous biopsy hasn't shown up anything untoward and, I sincerely hope that this one doesn't either.

    Fingers crossed for a good result.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • So im actually *** myself.. ive got my MRI booked in for tuesday, but didnt actually realise they would likely be checking my lungs too.. i have had a cough for a few weeks and am now worried it has spread to my lungs.. anyone else had this or know of anyone that has had this.. im so so scared...xx

  • Omg Michelle

    This  is such an awful worrying time for you. I’m sure it’s just routine to check other areas.  

    Our minds do tend to run away with us, and we think all sorts of terrible things. 

    Im at the hospital Tuesday again for my results. I was flabbergasted when I had to have another type of biopsy

    You are constantly in my thoughts

    take care

    sudi xxxx . 

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    Hi Michelle,

    Please don't worry about your MRI. Different tests are used for different purposes. An MRI will show some parts up more clearly than other tests. Many people who attend the breast clinic have an MRI. This tends to check the entire body.

    You are worrying about the cough that you've had for the past few weeks. Surely it is better to check everything out to start with? It sounds as if your consultant is being thorough and checking everything out. I have had 2 bouts of primary breast cancer 9 years and 8 years ago respectively. I had MRIs in both cases, but fortunately nothing further was detected.

    I hope that all goes well for you on Tuesday. Please let us know how you get on. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

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    Hi Sudi,

    I accepted your friend request last night, but it doesn't seem to have registered. Could you please send another request and I shall try again?

    I hope that your test results on Tuesday are good. It is not at all unusual to have different types of biopsies to clarify matters, so don't worry that you have had to have another.

    Will keep my fingers crossed for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine

    ive tried the friend request again. 

    It’s so nice to have you and the other ladies to chat to. Just to have people who actually understand all our fears and thoughts is a comfort. 

    Take care.

    talk again soon

    sydi xxxx 

  • Hi Jolamine

    cant seem to do the friend request thing.... prob me, but I’ve tried twice and it doesn’t work. 

    Can you try your end? 

    Sudi xx