I am waiting results for prostate biopsy. Had scans and rectum examination and not looking good. Family don’t want to know as if nothing is amiss. Every time I talk with my wife, she turns it around to her variety of illnesses, minor compared to this. Got to the stage where I feel it would be better going it alone and work from there. Done everything I shouldn’t have on the internet. Spend most of the night just thinking about it and by the time morning comes, I’m exhausted. I have the bowel cancer people chasing me for an annual check up. The dentist is chopping and changing appointments for major work to be done. I am now diabetic and that team are switching tablets and asking me to blood test all the time. I relentlessly am getting messages from doctor’s surgery for blood tests, blood pressure or stupid surveys rather than focussing on my main concerns. Try to get a doctor’s appointment and you wait eight weeks! And to cap it all my glasses have broken and I’ve discovered I have not had new specs for twelve years. If all this wasn’t really happening, I would see the funny side somewhere ….but I can’t!
