Hi, 

It sounds like you have been super speedy in getting seen and tested. I know this is a worrying time for you, and coming on here to chat will be a great way to get support from others who understand what you’re going through. 

Waiting for results is awful! Your mind goes through a million and one different thoughts- from feeling positive to the complete opposite, but the best thing is to just try and stay in the moment and deal with each thing as you come to it. Keep busy, keep distracted and really try to stay off google.

Sending you lots of love and positive wishes for your appointment xx 

I’m literally sat here with a painful breast and arm after having a lump, indentation near nipple and nipple changed direction (facing arm not forwards). Went to gp last Wednesday, been to the breast clinic tonight. Was examined and sent for mammogram and ultrasound. Lady doing mammogram said I’d only had one 6 months ago and They only usually do them every 12 months so I explained to her my symptoms and she went to ask someone for advice. She then came back and said they will do the ultrasound first, and if you need a mammogram, then I will do it.

Ultrasound, she took lots of pics and measurements on the screen then I went back for two mammograms and one breast. Then had to have two more mammograms done, then back to the ultrasound people who did biopsies and put titanium markers in as a precaution in case they need to do surgery. Was extremely worried by this point as in the past I usually have cysts (Which were drained when I went in January). They then sent me back to mammogram and had two more. Then went to see the specialist and although we have to wait two weeks for the results, he said he wants me to have an MRI. He emphasised that my breast tissue has changed a lot in six months and it is very concerning. He said you know what I mean don’t you? And I said yes but now I’m home after telling my partner and I’m doubting myself!! I was given a leaflet by the nurse that was with him and I thought it was explaining about the biopsy, but it’s a breast care nursing service leaflet.  And beginning to think I’ve made it up? Anaesthetic off quite quickly and I am so sore. Had all over the place…

So I can completely understand how you are feeling and The uncertainty of iit all. 
Do you have support of family/friends? I think a place like this where we can talk where people are invested in as a person can help? 

Sending strength and positivity

Thank you. I have been fortunate to be local to the hospital and getting cancellations. 

That sounds quite traumatic with so many tests.  I find it hard it when they are vague because I too start second-guessing. It is easy to wonder if they meant it one way or another and then I wonder what else I missed. I am trying just stick with what I know  and seeing some positives but the mind does wander.  ,I am finding myself wanting to say things like try not to worry, and then stopping myself because I know that isn't what I want to hear.  What works best for you in approach? I like pragmatic but gentle.

My husband is being brilliant and I keep forgetting, he must be going through similar feelings. I have some good friends I can talk to and with whom I can just say or ask without having to manage their feelings.  One, in particular, is keeping me sane, because she hears me but doesn't let me go down the what if. She brings me back to what we do know and what is likely. She works in the NHS although in a different field, but that helps from a procedure POV.  
I hadn't realised how different things are depending on where you are: order of tests, whether to keep on HRT or not, general advice etc. That has helped because when others has a different experience, it makes me wonder if that means mine is worse or better or other different rabbit holes.

I haven't told family yet. Waiting for solid news first.

How about you? Are you feeling supported? 
thanks for the support. I really appreciate it and I know you understand too.  Lots of strength and positivity back to you too,

Aww glad you e got support. I’m also a great believer in you can deal with what you know, you can’t deal with the unkown. I literally feel like I’m on a rollercoaster of positivity and negativity! I had gone to the hospital by myself as I thought they were only going to find assist and drain it as they’ve done in the past so my long winded response to your post was because I’d literally got home told my partner and my eldest child then got online here. 
I missed out that they did core biopsies and put 6 markers in  at the final ultrasound. when I went back in to see the consultant he said he was very concerned because I only had a mammogram that was clear six months ago. He said wheb the biopsy results are in in about 2 weeks That will help us to come up with a plan and that they will look after me . He also said I will be having An MRI as I’ve got lots of other health problems going on at the . Because the lump and pulling/indent/nipple direction change was on my left breast they only did the mammograms et cetera of my left . He asked if I had anyone with me and would I be okay driving home. Then advised me to tell my partner and decide with him who I should tell. I was saying things like So we don’t actually know till we get the biopsy results so I may as well not say anything for now. He basically repeated what he’d already said to me but ended it with but I think you knew that didn’t  you. He was so lovely and did reassure me after emphasising the concerns  but didn’t actually say the words.

I literally sat with my mouth open - it was so similar to what I had been through/was feeling 

Yes it’s tough for those closest and am glad you’re being supported with hubby and friends. I told my partner and eldest daughter when I got in but said I don’t want other kids (all adults) knowing yet until I know a course of action. 

I forgot to say they did core biopsies and put 6 titanium markers in when I had the final ultrasound.

when I went back in with the consultant he said he’s very concerned at the changes from clear mamagrams only in Jan and said about the markers being in to help surgeons. He asked if I had anyone with me (I didn’t, expected it to be another cyst that they would drain). He said it will be about 2 weeks for the biopsy results but I will get an appointment for an MRI. They only did my left side last night.

He said they will look after me, he was sorry that they had concerns and that they would come up with a plan moving forward when the results are in. 
so although he didn’t actually say yes you’ve got cancer it was intimated quite strongly and he did say I think you knew that didn’t you?  
when the nurse took me out the room, she asked who I have at home. I told her her and said I don’t need to say anything until I get the results back though do I? She said you need to tell your partner and decide between you who you going to tell so that sort of confirmed that I wasn’t getting the wrong end of the stick from the consultant. 

Barely slept last night though (it’s painful afterwards isn’t it) and had to phone today just to clarify because I thought I’’d got it completely wrong and was questioning what they had done/said. 
Thank you for sharing, helps to know we’re not alone x

Sorry I didn’t think my other message had sent :0