Hi, it might be bigger now especially if your prodding and poking it. If it's painful then perhaps take pain relief. You could try to phone the breast clinic but I dont know if it would help tbh. I really do feel for you. We have all been thro the waiting period and it is worrying for us all. I really know where your coming from when people tell you don't worry, it's natural to be worried. I found chatting on here helps a lot when I'm feeling worried, down,or even upset. 

Good luck and just take one day at a time xx

Hi, Stay off Google, it doesn't help it heightens your anxiety. The feeling of not knowing is the worst, your mind will go into overdrive. You have to think of it this way, if you didn't go to the GP or find the lump then that would be worse, although it's scary your doing the right thing and the hospital will look after you. 
Don't jump ahead, it could be a cyst. Boobs are so complex. I'm 38 with two sons. I do know how you feel. Mine was Cancer, but I caught it early and I'm on the other side now and doing well., Take deap breaths stay to the light. Xx

I read that cysts look RADICALLY different to cancer on an ultrasound and are therefore very easy to diagnose. But the problem here is your anxiety (I have health anxiety too).. please do not research this any more. There is no value in that. Accept that right now, you do not know what these lumps are, and trust that the professionals have the tools to find out. You are not qualified to diagnose yourself. Also remind yourself regularly of the facts- most breast lumps are benign. Most importantly, STOP TOUCHING THEM. You are prolonging the anxiety cycle. Every time you touch them, you're inviting more intrusive thoughts. 
good luck with your scan and try and put your energy into managing your anxiety rather than trying to diagnose yourself xx

I feel that I can't get past this, every thought of every waking minute is do I have cancer I have cancer I know I do stop being ridiculous you don't know anything it's a cyst but what if it isn't we won't be able to go on holiday in October I'll ruin everything i can't book anything I can't get excited about anything my first thought when the queen died was well what if it's me next. 
 

i can't help it I look at my kids and think I need to plan for their birthdays like cards etc xmases leave notes for my partner so he knows what to do. 
I don't know how to manage this anxiety it has taken over me like something else. I've never ever been like this before even when I had an abnormal smear this is next level I think because I know deep down this is going to be it for me. 

I've stopped prodding it now yt doesn't hurt which I'm worried about. And I don't know if it's grown? And my shoulder hurts I've read about referred pain in breast cancer? 

I'm really sorry to see how much of an impact your anxiety is having at the moment Scaredtosleep99.

When anxiety feels constant or overwhelming it can be very difficult to manage. If you feel like your anxiety has got to that point, please let your GP know as they will be able to help and possibly provide you with something that will help calm you and get this under control.

I hope the posts you've been receiving from the community have been helping as well but if you feel you need further support and advice do be sure to have a look at the tips given on the NHS Every Mind Matters website and the resources provided on Anxiety UK.

We're thinking of you ScaredtoSleep99 and hope everything will be o.k.

Kind regards,

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Thank you, you probably think I sound like an utter nutter i promise you I'm not! I don't know where this has come from i have health anxiety but never anything like this. I'm usually a rational person but this I don't know it's just taken over my life since Sunday when I found the lump. I phoned the breast clinic and told them about my anxiety and worries and she said basically you'll have to wait which is fine but she said if it's bad news it won't make a difference anyway! I said what have I said to make you think it'll be bad news!!  She said its nothing they can do it'll be looked at and assessed Monday and go from there but she really made me panic, will the GP have told them anything on the referral letter like a heads up oh I think this or I think that? 
 

My stomach is in knots I've just had another feel and I'm sure there's more lumps 

Hi scaredtosleep,

I've just been reading your posts and I feel exactly like you. I have health anxiety since losing a close family member and at the min, I am beyound terrified. 
I can't sleep, eat, I cry all day and feel sick. How the heck I am going to get through work tomorrow, I have absolutely no idea. I'm desperate even for a couple of hours sleep. I literally had about an hours sleep since Friday and I lay awake thinking the worst and putting my family through another loss and grief. 
my app at the breast clinic is on rhe 15th what about yours? I have a lump, as well as swelling  and pain under arm pit and I am expecting the worst. This is my second lump and got good news with the first. Also this is 5 scare which involves a 2 week referral to rule Out cancer, in 2 years. I got good news on all 5 and feel like l luck will run out. I just feel physically ill waiting for news/appointments and it's taking over my life. I just wanted to share how I felt to let you know you are not alone. Sending love x

Hi  

Big hugs mine sounds so similar I have a small lump left breast mine feels like a pea.

I had an ultrasound and biopsy Friday they said it was 15mm and on screen just looked black. They think it's very round she said good sign. 

Just waiting on results now so hard not sure if they call or go back you almost forgot to ask things. 

Good luck with yours definitely ring doctor.

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