Hi,

I've read so many forums on here and now feel I need to reach out and see if it helps.

I was told 2 weeks ago at breast clinic there was very high chance that what they saw was cancer. I'm 39 and went as found a lump.

I had this confirmed yesterday! I was told I have pre cancerous calcification and the lump I have is 2cm and it's invasive and oestrogen positive. The result for the lymph node they took is also positive! And it's this that has tipped me over the edge. They have said need ct scan, which should have been today but they rang and cancelled it, it's now tomorrow.
I can't stop assuming the worse. I waited 10 days for my results and just want to get on with treatment but now have the ct to worry about and wait for results! They had said my plan is chemo then mascetomy.
 

I'm really struggling to function and feel so down and not well! I had prescription for something to help my anxiety but it made me ill last night so don't want to continue with it. I feel like I'm falling apart and I know I need to be strong but I'm struggling. I have 2 young children and want to be able to function for them but I'm struggling. My mind keeps going to very dark places and I just don't feel I have the strength to cope.

Thanks for reading to those that do.