Just in shock i suppose. My gp kept reassuring me that it was piles even though due to covid they never exaimed me. and i told them that the treatment i was given didn't help.  I was waiting to be seen by the hospital but told it could be up to nine months before i saw them. Managed to get a private consultantion and within 2 weeks had  seven polyps removed from the lower colon with the largest being in the anus being 40mm.  My follow up appointment was for the 18th but the consultant rang me tonight to tell me the news.  

i need ct and mri to see if it has spread and been referred to the hospital for chemo. I know that this isnt the most common of cancers ans more than a little embrassing to tell people. But i can't  help thanking my lucky stars that i managed to get this covered through my husband's company. Its bad enough that this has been held up due to covid  but waiting another 9 months!!!  I just don't know how to break the news to my children and the rest of my family.