... and I'm glad that I found this forum. Earlier this afternoon, my wife, who's 47, was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Probably stage 3 or 4. It wasn't a surprise, as she has, in the past month, also been diagnosed with abdominal fluid. We both knew that that wasn't a good thing. She's not a drinker, so knew it wasn't liver-related, which left only cancer. At the moment, she looks 8 months pregnant and is in hospital right now, ready for 'draining' tomorrow. And for her, that has been the worst thing, the abdominal fluid has practically left her incapacitated for the past month. Actually, she can't wait to be drained because, other than carrying around all of that liquid, she feels fine in herself.

This is the first night I've spent in the house without her since we married in 2009. It's a house that she bought on her own, long before she met me. I'm here with our 7 year old son. He's autistic. So am I. It's not easy, but we're doing fine. Still feels really weird though.

I haven't really got anything else to say. I'm not even sure why I'm posting here. Perhaps it's shock. Reassurance, maybe?  I can't describe how I feel right now. I'm well aware that my wife could die. On the other hand, I'm also aware that she might just survive; she's a tough old cookie. We both are. I am trying not to think of a future without her. She's my best friend. I don't know what I'd do without her, but I'd survive. I have to, for my son.

Guess I'm just looking for people who've had similar experiences. Saying that I'd 'love' to hear from you is the wrong thing... I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. But you know what I mean. How did you all feel when you first got that diagnosis? Or if your parnter got that diagnosis?

Thanks for reading. Love to you all.

Z

XXX