Hi Poppy, 

like you I’ve had my world halted, turned upside down but you know what it’s ok I was diagnosed March 26th with bc , had a mastectomy 18th April. I’ve got lots of friends & family & I told them all, the way I see it the more people know the more love & support there is. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t go singing it from the rooftops or have a doe is me attitude, it’s made me want to talk about it to get the awareness out there. I have no history in the family & a mammogram 8 months ago came back clear so it was a bit of a shock. I found the lump myself. Your adrenaline will get you through, for me it’s since the op that the emotions have really kicked in but you just have to go with the flow. Allow your self to feel whatever you feel even if that’s not normally you. What I’ve found hard is going from working 10&1/2 hr days to nothing so my goal this week is to have two good days in a row & imgoing to focus on one thing each day as for me I need to have something to aim for. I truly know how hard this is for you right now, some days it will feel like the end of the world , others you’ll feel as if nothing is wrong. It’s going to be a tipsy turvy emotional journey but you are not alone. Here for you if you ever need to chat xx

Thanks Twinks. I really appreciate you taking the time out to message me. I feel angry, upset calm, angry, upset calm. Such a mixture of emotions. I just want it taken out of me, the whole time it is there I'm worried it's doing more damage. I too have no family history. 

I am lucky to have a loving family who are my rock. They've kept me busy so far. I know I've got to remain positive. Xx