I'm just completely alone 

Try and talk to us ?

I'm so scared to. I'm so ashamed 

Try not to be scared ...

I should just disappear. I don't deserve anyone's time 

Although nobody knows each other we are all in the same boat and all friends. What are you ashamed of?

I just give up 

If you don't talk about it nobody can help you...try...

I'm just absolutely terrified 

I see my consultant tomorrow to find out what I have and hopefully what the cure is...