Just found out today  I have an ulcerating mass near my cervix, roughly 3-4cm. Dr was very concerned  and said it’s highly suspicious and from her empathic responses it was clear she also thinks it’s cancer, but have to now wait for MRI and biopsy results. 
I have all the symptoms of vaginal cancer. It’s oozing a smelly liquid almost constantly. Had bleeding on and off for the past month and have been post menopause for 7yrs.  Problems with bowels recently and urinating more often. Have lost a stone in weight in the past year but not sure exactly when. 

Got 3 weeks to wait now and it’s so hard keeping it from my adult kids (don’t want this misery to be associated with Christmas for them forever). Trying to appear normal. was calm all day but nowkeep going into panic mode and then despair. I’ve done a bit of reading and it doesnt look great? Are there any survival stories out there? Any hope at all? I’m 57. My life has been characterised by loss nd health issues but recently I was given another shot at love and life and adventure and this just seems so cruel. Hoping to find just a little hope

how have you coped with pre and new diagnosis? Distraction? Talking? How to manage panic?