Evening All,
I was diagnosed on Wednesday with a grade 3 invasive carcinoma that's in my lymph nodes. huge shock to say the least!
On the 9/9/22 I am having a lumpectomy to remove it and all of my lymph nodes removed on the right hand side. The surgeon then said chemo cycles will follow followed by targeted radiotherapy for 3 weeks. He seemed very positive, yet I'm very terrify.
I have just turned 41 and have an amazing family, husband and daughter who are all so supportive yet I'm riddled with guilt since I told them. I feel like I've turned their lives completely upside down and the pain on my 15yo face hurts my heart.
I've had a few nights this week where I've woken sleepy eyes and thought for a brief moment, I can't believe I just dreamt I had cancer and then the realisation kicks in and I'm back in the black hole with this knot in my stomach.
im trying so hard to be positive. I am a positive person, ok a primary school teacher so it's part of the job but I've had moments over the last few days where I've felt like I'm sinking. The thoughts that haunt my mind.
Apologies, I'm hoping when it sinks in and I've accepted it that I'll gain control again of my emotions.
Sending my love to all those fighting on! Xx
