Hi Im new to the forum but have been following some of the chats and thought it might be helpful. In the 8th December last year my partner discovered he had primary tonsil cancer with secondarys innhis lymph nodes at 54. This was acomplete shock despite me being a senior nurse and our world fell apart. After undergoing a tonsillectomy, RIG insertion, 5 cycles of chemo and 30 sessions of VMAT radiotherapy he still needed a neck dissection and we have been told he is in remission following a CT and PET scan .The treatment was worse than either of us could have imagined but we came through and we got married in July. I know we should be pitting it behind us and getting onwith our lives but Im finding it difficult to live with the fear of it returning. He hadnt been ill , doesnt smoke, drink and were vegetarian so I find it hard not to think why him ! How do other people live with the fear and anxiety and doesit get easier? Thanks