I like that no secrets good girl, only time I lied to bren was were my C was i didn't tell her all places but when I was ill bren called 111 and they told her everything (oops) she realised why I'd not told her, so was OK, I'd better not put to many love and kisses on or else I'll be in trouble,, love and kisses XXX

BILLY 

Hi shelly never really had much sleep when I was working was up till midnight, then waking about five to get things ready for the day make sure Brenda was able to look after her self she hasn't been very good for about nine years now but she could move around using furniture or hand rails I'd fitted around the house, we have sos pendant in case of problems, and I only worked five minutes away depending on traffic, its funny really I told bren I'd look after her in later life more as a joke really but, for better or for worse sickness and in health, it was a big surprise the way things turned out,.. I'll sneak in a kiss wile hubby's not watching us, talk later,, God bless after all it is Sunday, love Billy 

P.s bren says I'm her slave, sometimes I'm treated like one as well fetch this fetch that, she can be very bossy but that's typical woman, as you know,, at least you've got a handy husband, some on here husbands can't do any thing, Inc cooking,, God bless again, 

Hi Billy, not feeling too good today, got really bad pains in my stomach. Think you do a brilliant job looking after your wife while you are ill yourself. You should of told her from the start about your cancer, it always comes out in the end. Yes we don't have any secrets it's the best way. I was reading on the breast cancer forum, as soon as she was diagnosed with cancer her husband left her, shocking isn't it.  Ha ha bout the kisses you make me laugh Billy. Well isn't that what you men are here for, to wait on us women lol. Peter is really good, he does most of the house work and washing and he's really good at diy, so I'm lucky. Do you mind if I ask what's wrong with your wife. You don't have to say if you don't want to.  Best wishes.

love Shelly.xxx

She's got rumatoid arthritis and saw specialist first April, told something wrong with her brain, she's no balance at all waiting to get scan to find out what, for that, she's no short term memory at all also she had a breakdown a few years ago and on meds permanent I have to give her the tablets when time,,, hope you feel better soon, :-) love Billy

P.s just remembered brakedown was bipolar disorder, as you can guess I do everything for Brenda, and house work I get a bit low now and again then remember I haven't got time i find on forum it helps me to tune in to what's got to be done,, 

Aw bless her, she's having a right time of it. Hope it's nothing too serious and they can sort it out. I bet it's hard for you too. Especially being ill as well. Thanks Billy I hope I feel better soon, getting on my nerves now lol. Anyway you take care, bless you.

love Shelly.xxx

Hi shelly, did you notice I didn't send lots of love and kisses,, but I don't want to push my luck with your husband he's taller than me, get well that's an order I enjoy talking to you were in a similar boat rowing to shore, and It's a long way to go, love.... Billy

P.s I've managed to get some mugs Brenda can drink out of on her own it's some baby mugs with a top with the nozzle to the btm but I've modified them so you don't have to suck which she can't do very good liquid slowly pours out into mouth, sometimes she doesn't close mouth so it goes all over, but at least she tries, 

Ha ha he doesn't mind, I've just told him lol. He wants to know where you live lol. Aw thank you Billy, I enjoy talking to you too. It's nice to speak to people who have similar conditions to us. It cheer me up.

Thats good you found Brenda that cup, might give you a little break. Any way off to bed now. Night night. 

Love and kisses Shelly.xxx

Hi shelly, I think North lincs is near enough I don't want to get a tall visitor one day, all my relatives live down south Suffolk my father moved to a job up here, up here I've got step relatives but they all have family of there own and are working, so just me and bren, oh and Bella (woof) she sends her love,, oh she's just threatened to bite him if he comes here,, so I'm safe my car's outside if I need a quick getaway,, hope you had a good family get together,, anyway good morning, I'm trying to get bren to start reading again she stopped last year, it's only mills and boon, but she liked them try to get her brain going, hope your feeling" OK"not to much of the strong stuff, lots of love and kisses..... Billy 

Hi Billy, been busy today it's my sons 21st, so been out for a meal, him and Peter have gone for a drink now. I hope you know I was joking when I said we're do you live. Been laughing at what you wrote, your funny Billy. Aw shame you have no relatives near by. Had a nice family get together thanks, it's lovely to see the kids. They cheer me up. That will be good for her if she could do some reading, it will be like brain training, anything to get it working, does she like puzzles? 

Been in a lot of pain today in my stomach and back, but some good news, I'm getting my stomach drained tomorrow so that should ease it. My onc was arranging this and said I'd get a letter in the post but still haven't had one. So I phoned Macmillan nurse up yesterday and she got me in for tomorrow. Why couldnt my onc do that, she knew I was in a lot of pain. 

How are you anyway, hope you and Brenda are well, well as well as can be.

lots of love and kisses Shelly ️Xxx

Nice one sons 21st, bren can't stand puzzles, when i had cemo i always took puzzle and crossword books with me to pass time,, glad you getting drained tomorrow (does that sound right)??? Had weird one earlier, last month went to optician bren went this afternoon, both of us have cateracts in both eyes, how's that for doing things together,, we're still plodding on, in bit of a rut really,, be glad when know whats wrong with bren,, going to hospital on 19th to see how much C has gone up, bit worried, marj said see if I can have immunotherapy instead of cemo, going to ask oncologist, and got to find someone to look after Mrs, it's shame Peters not coming round I'd like to see him (joke (^_-)), hope you weigh yourself before and after lots of kisses and cuddle.... Billy