Hi ANNIE,  your life sounds as happy as mine!  Pleased about the foot and that Muffin isn't  too bad.  My brother tried to say I must have diabetes as he's four years younger,  had two strokes a heart attack and diabetes!   It runs in the family but I know this so I take care of my health, so no I don't have it.  I bet you don't either people can be crass sometimes and need to butt out.  I just feel like I'm in limbo at the moment, stuck in the same place day after day.  I feel like my wings have been clipped and yearn for some freedom or a break somewhere different.  But, he doesn't want to know, he even suggested at Chris and John's that I join the  WI instead of sitting on my bum at night.  I would rather  stick knitting needles in my eyes.  I'm knackered by night as I do everything to keep us going, honestly I sometimes think he's on a different planet.  So I'm sat on my bum again, having done the shopping, the washing the garden and cooked tea.  We're now booked in for Sunday lunch at the golf club for Father's day despite him saying it was a stupid American idea that we all followed!   But at least he's done Something! !  I also finally have a broom handle that doesn't come out each time I use it as he finally put a screw in it.  The garage is a tip so he can help with that next week, it's time he started helping more.  Last time I said that he fell over, so I won't hold my breath.   Enjoy what's left of the weekend.  Xx

We've just had a lovely Sunday lunch at the golf club but sat in the garden room as the dining room was empty.   Once upon a time you had to fight to get a seat but a lot of members are not supporting the club, which is a shame.  Faye sent a box of small individual dark green and black chocolates so we've binge eating them as well.  Some days it's nice to give in to these treats and we've certainly managed that today.  Lisa rang and had sent Dad a framed picture of her and Harry  but despite sending it special delivery last Thursday , it hasn't arrived, our postal service is rubbish, things disappear into a black hole.  Hubby looks the best he's looked for months and I hope we can have a few months of respite before it all kicks off again.  Happy Father's Day to all you special Dad's,  battling or helping those who have cancer.  Love Carol 

My new cleaner turns up and I have to go through everything again, like not washing floors as he'll fall over, picking up mats and many other little idiosyncrasies that rule our everyday life.   I then go to clean the garage up and he follows me out. Within five minutes the hoover is being flung around as it's stuck under the old garden table.  I thought you were getting rid of it he says, I am but no one has called me back.   I pick up the old lawn mower to put in my boot and get told that I'm being premature as we don't know if the new one works.  I lose my temper and say he's the most pessimistic person I've ever known and if he can't cope then don't do it.  I get shouted at and told not to tell him what to do, oh sorry I say I'm only concerned you will hurt yourself! The outcome is, hubby has gone out and I'm left cleaning the garage!  Peace reigns and I can tootle around to my hearts content til he comes back.  Each day is different from the other.  I know it's frustrating for him because he literally can do very little now days.  I need to find a handy man that will take the hard work off of us both.  There are not many of them around.  Ane and Dave are back amd are mowing the lawns and sweeping up after the winds,  they have a new cat which walked through my garden yesterday,  it looks like a miniature tiger, I nearly fell off the chair in shock!  Neither Fayes Father days card, nor Lisa's present have turned up again,  come back Royal Mail,  this new lot are rubbish.  See you tomorrow. 

As Annie says, I'm allowed to have a wobble every now and then and yesterday was one of them.  He gets home at 6pm and we are quite frosty with each other!  I have two glasses of wine, go to bed and dream my car has been stolen!   Today is a different day, I get back from my class and there is a coffee ready for me.  I ask him to adjust the blades on the new lawn mower and this is done without asking ten times.  Whilst I'm mowing Norman next door calls, back from America, he has our missing present and cards, stupid post man has stuck them in his door, even though we both have house numbers on the wall.  So mystery solved, we now have to collect the parcel.  Faye rings to see how we are then asks for a private word, so I take the phone outside, her friends Dad has died of cancer  and the funeral is this month, she didn't want hubby to know, so I'm not sure if she wants me to go to represent her, I must admit I'm trying very hard NOT to go to any funerals !  I pop too M& S food hall and buy steak pie for tea and some new plasters for his toe.  If this doesn't work back to the GP as it's now five months and no sign of healing.  Norman has also given us another letter which is an appointment for December, he sys he had more post for us than themselves!   this year is going so fast.  Hubby has taken off again saying he wants to try his golf whilst he can, I'm  not sure what he meant by that, does he mean because of the weather or because of his health, I don't think I want it clarifying.  See you tomorrow 

I go to zumba and it's boiling hot, 21 degrees and no air so we all take turns to stand at the  only open window that let's a breeze in!  Back home hubby has gone for his present and we both smile at Lisa and Harry together, they are like peas in a pod he says, the card has turned up and it says I love you to the moon and back, love Harry.  An invitation arrives to a friend's 50th in September,  she is Lisa's friend but we have all gone on holiday together so we are included.  We can actually plan something three months ahead, which is a step in the right direction for us.  Hubby looks really well and because he has been out in the sun he has a golfer's tan, I.e arms and face!    So I take off and get the car washed, it's another seven pounds to hoover it out so I come home and do it myself.  We've had a lazy afternoon as we are off to James Cook early doors.  I'm then picking three friends up and going to see The Book Club, that should give us all some ideas!  Bella Italian here we come,  must watch those doors this time.  See you tomorrow 

My alarm goes off at 7.15 am and I'm somehow dreaming about someone asking how I'm coping now my husband is dead, I explain that he's not dead and that's when the noise of the alarm drills into my nightmare.   My dreams are getting worse but I shove it down deep and we head for James Cook.   Three hours later we're home and he seems happy with his adjustment , also the new plasters I bought seem to be working and Steve says how well he looks.  So I go out happy, collect the girls and the movie is brilliant,  we giggled all the way through it.  We manage to get 40% off our meal and we have a great time.  Hubby has gone and got himself fish and chips all on his own.  So I've just had a glass of wine and I don't think I'll take much rocking tonight. Xx

Dreams like that can be very disconcerting can't they?  Glad you enjoyed the film however.    I sometimes imagine you on one of the swing boats that used to be at fairgrounds when I was young - one person sat at each end and both pulled the ropes to make it go higher.  Very tame in this day and age but we liked them.  Anyway, sometimes they would go faster and higher; other times they slowed down depending on who was pulling the ropes.  I have no idea why I pictured you like that!  And with a glass of wine in your hand!  Sometimes I think you have to keep going like the red queen in Alice "running as fast as you can to stay in the same place". Sorry, I am probably not being particularly complimentary.  Or was it the white queen?  No matter.  Annie

Hi ANNIE,  I loved the swing boats and my brother and I went as high as we could!  I went on the tea cups the other week with Ella as she didn't want to go on her own, not a lot of room for Grandma head wmise but the man swung us around to Ella's delight.   You're right I sometimes seem to be like the people in Alice in Wonderland, except replace cups of tea with wine!   I've been sat in the garden drinking wine and doing a little bit of ironing in between.  It's  so hot I've come in and Norman is sat out drinking larger and looking so much better.   Have a lovely weekend, what ever you have planned.  Love Carol x

It's a beautiful morning so I get up early and hubby drives me into town, after his usual leisurely second cup of tea, for his tablets and scanning the newspaper whilst I hop from foot to foot ready to go.  I'd take my car but he loves running me around, so I don't have to find parking, so by 9.59 am I tell him I'm not messing around as I'm meeting Mary at 10.30.  He jumps to it but drops his flipping shoe on his bad toe again, I just raise my eyes heavenward,  a little more concentration could avoid this!  I buy hubby two new shirts as he wouldn't let me previously,  as it could be a waste of money if he didn't make it!  So another good day for us both.  I buy Lisa a beautiful 40th card telling her she is fabulous, which she is!  I've done two weeks ironing, in between sitting drinking wine in the sun shine, Hubby is drinking larger and sitting in the shade, his first time at the new table.  I'm starving so I'm off to cook tea.  Enjoy your weekend all of you. X