You are totally justified to feel low. Interesting thing about our minds is that, we cannot stop thinking about things we do not want to (or probably should not) think about too much. As a result, we end up in a viscious cycle. A simple trick to get out of that cycle is to start thinking about something else. For example, It is probably a good time to search and find good news about possibilities. Let me help a little here! Did you know that there are research suggesting your diet can affect cancer hugely? Prof Thomas Seyfried PhD from Boston College has quite a few lectures/discussions on youtube about that. While waiting for the treatment to start, this is something you can do on your own and hopefully, your mind will get excited and you will feel better. Interestingly, I heard him saying that they found treatments to be more effective and patients reported less side effects (both from chemo and raditation) while using both tools (diet and treatment) together. Cancer diagnosis is a terrible event for anyone but if you understand the disease properly and use scientifically tested strategies, you will probably prove yourself to be the boss!
