Hi I was just thinking about you!

My days been up and down. I keep trying to convince myself it's fine and they're just being cautious...Also trying to be "normal" for my children but it's hard. 
 

How about yours? 

My day was actually ok as I've felt a lot better and eaten a little more. Unfortunately I ended up feeling quite poorly with a lot of pain in my abdomen so it seems as if I'm struggling to eat without a lot of discomfort. Resulted in me being upset and worried all over again. I try to be positive but some of my symptoms are really worrying me. I feel a lot worse now than I did yesterday. Still hoping there's a logical reason for it all.

It's so difficult....

Hope you get a better sleep tonight :)

Sorry for not replying I couldn't get my internet to work.

Its a shame you had a better day and now eating has made your symptoms worse. Are they sure it's not your digestive system? It's so hard to be positive when we don't know the outcome. 
 

The later it gets in the evening and the more I try to relax the worse it seems to be. I can't keep myself distracted. I've got a good book and hope I fall asleep...

I hope you get some sleep as well. It seems ages away but it'll soon be Monday.  

Thanks for your message.

I can't quite believe it but I slept through. It must have finally caught up with me. I also feel ok this morning with little discomfort. I do feel like there's definitely a digestive problem and that's what we were looking for when the lesion was found. I'm hoping i have an hemangioma that the doctor mentioned to you, along with an ulcer. That would be a good outcome!

I forgot to mention that i got a letter yesterday and my appointment tomorrow is to see a consultant. It doesn't mention a scan as yet. I did only get told that the scan would be in the next two weeks but I thought Monday's appointment would be it. I wish time would go faster!

The evenings are very difficult aren't they? I like reading too but I've found that i just can't concentrate and i keep reading the same part over and over. I've found an audiobook to be better at the moment. It's quite relaxing to lie back, close your eyes and let someone read you a story with no effort required!

Are you ok? I hope you had a better night than the previous one.

Morning!

Im so glad you got some sleep and are feeling better today. That's good that you get to see the consultant first and discuss it. What department is it in? The hemanogioma is meant to be very common. That's what they originally thought I had (I'm still hoping it is and they're just being cautious but I'm not optimistic as there's one on my gland as well). 
 

Ive not had a brilliant night and finally fell asleep at 5! Couldn't concentrate on the reading either... Today I don't feel very optimistic when I look at the speed things have moved and think about the conversation I had with the doctor. Also the referral definitely mentioned liver cancer suspected.  I really want Monday to come but in a way I'm so scared of what they'll find I don't. No pleasing me!!

I hope you have a good day. What time is your appointment on Monday? 

Sorry to hear you had a bad night. It's awful when you can't stop thinking about everything. It's difficult to stop your mind running riot. I hope you feel a little better now it's daytime.

You're bound to start thinking about things with a bit more worry today as we're getting closer to someone telling us what is actually wrong. I think it's a coping mechanism to help us in case we get bad news. Try and make sure you balance the negative thoughts with some positive ones if possible. Easier said than done though I know. Please try not to worry too much. 

My consultants appointment is 9am tomorrow in the gastric department. I hope I'll find out when my scan will be.

Hope you have as good a day as possible. I'm sure we'll both be feeling fairly similar emotions as the day wears on, so feel free to message if you want.

When will you find out a time for your scan tomorrow?

Sorry for not replying... I've been trying to keep busy. 
How's your day been? 

at least your appointment is early so it's over and done. Isf have thought the fact it's the gastric department and not liver is good? I really hope it all goes well. 
 

No problem. Hope your day has been ok.

I hadn't thought about the department to be honest - hopefully that means something. Yes, it's good that it's first thing. Not sure how much more I'll find out really. The scan results will be the most difficult.

My day has been ok. I've kept busy and don't feel too bad to be honest. Hope you're feeling ok and i hope everything goes really well for you tomorrow too. I'll be thinking of you.

Hope you're doing ok