Carol u are absolutely lovely been really worried about cancer recently and idk why and seeing that message really warmed my heart thankyou

Hiya, 

I have suffered with extreme health anxiety since I was 11. My flare ups are so intense despite years of therapy. However, what I've realised is it's really a fear of death, I just can't accept it comfortably. I carry this fear 24 7. 
Anyway, I'm here because I have found a small tendor ish lump under 1 arm and I'm freaking out! I wish I could be a little more rational- I am in many ways but not with health. I'm so fed up with this brain, it's exhausting. 
I'd do anything to not fear the C word and death. 
Anyway, I wanted to say thanks for the post, it's a great outlook. 
Sending you positive healing thoughts. 

Hello All. 
 

I wanted to reach out about my extreme anxiety with breast cancer. 
I am 35, no family history and no diagnosis, but I am constantly worried that I am going to get it, every pain, slight twitch and I think I have it. I am finding myself going to the doctors every month now so the doctor can check. 
I think this may stem from my mam taking me to the doctors for everything when I was a little girl. 
it sounds so silly but this is how I feel and I can't lose the fear and anxiety of this. 
 

Can anyone else relate to this? 
 

Thank you

Danielle

Hello, 

health anxiety truly is the worst, you can't get away from your body. 
I have recently had CBT on the NHS and it's helped massively. Please do a self referral, your doc can give you the details. 
There's hope I promise! 

Hi 

I totally agree with what you said about a fear of death.

I have debilitating health anxiety,  I've had loads of counselling. Cbt. Nothing works. It's so upsetting. 

I take propranolol now, helps a bit.

Anxiety and health anxiety is crippling. 

The shakes, the hotness, the intense muscle pain. 

I've never met another person who sounds just thr same as me.

I don't know what else do.

It's something I'll have to live with. 

I'm waiting on biopsy results. 

Wishing you all the best 

Xx

Hello, 

Bless you. I used to think that but now every time I speak to someone with H anxiety I'm like ' oh here's my twin thinker ' . 
It's such an awful illness and catches you off guard. 
 

I used to take Valium but have learnt that I don't need it really as the problem will still remain, it's my thinking catastrophe that's the issue. Weird thing is I'm so rational with everting else but this seed keeps flowering sadly. 
 

Plesde keep us updated! 
 

My last lump disappeared, I had mouth infection at the time but didn't know, was a gland I suppose. 
 

lots of love - you're never alone 

Hello

Thankyou for your lovely reply.

Love what you said about the seed keeps flowering.

And to be a twin thinker.  It's comforting to know I'm not on my own.

A lot of people really don't understand how crippling it is 

I hide it make up and doing my hair. People would never know. I've become an expert at pretending. 

I have had Lumps under my armpit , but turned out to be cysts..

Thankyou again for being so nice

Xx 

Heya! I am sorry for your struggles.

What you're saying doesn't sound silly and I can totally relate. Growing up with a mother with health anxiety, projecting it to me and always warning me about health problems I ended up having it severely.

The solution for me was psychology, listening to podcasts, practicing affirmations and Cognitive Behavioural Therapy techniques, to reprogram my mind that would always think about worst case scenario health worries. I can attest that I am doing much better!

There is light at the end of the tunnel but it needs methodological action and to work through the past memories. Also, I confronted my mother and prohibited any discussion about health worries from her. We have a good relationship but I can't and won't tolerate to hear about these topics as they are massive triggers. Once the family knows, you can starting working on yourself to recover.

I hope all this makes sense. At least know that you're not alone. Hugs x

I'm a hair and makeup addict too! Everyone's so shocked when I tell them my ' crazy ' fears.

I am definitely not cured but I feel I've maybe turned a corner..... let's hope. 

I think that my biggest turning point had been that I don't check obsessively now, just weekly maybe and quickly. It's definitely calmed me down. Last Summer was so bad, I coudnt walk away from the mirror. It's a journey that's for sure. 

Always here if you need a chat. It's so nice to feel you're not alone or mad, we are as ' normal ' as anyone else. We all have our quirks! 
x x char 
 

Hi Char, 

im finding I check my boobs everyday and I'm always thinking breast tissue is a lump, I convince myself that is it a lump, I'm waiting on a doctors appointment today so the doctor can check, I even get my partner to stare at them to see if he can notice any changes. I'm so fed up of being terrified. 
 

im glad your getting better and had a turning point. 
 

it's nice to speak to woman who are going through the same worries xx