Referral to breast clinic... terrified

Hello all

I feel like a fraud posting, knowing and having read some posts on here. I hope its ok to post, I feel I need somewhere 'safe' to vent as I have little support around me.

I found a swollen patch of skin/thickening a month ago, in my arm pit and ignored thinking it was just from shaving, I have no idea how long it had been there as I don't shave often... fast forward 2 weeks, its a bit more lumpy plus slightly uncomforatble in that area. My breast feels 'clogged' up (for want of a better expression) on the outer part, with a few few pinchy stabbing pains sometimes..... I examined myself and found what felt like a lymph node or two. 

I left it, thinking it would go... but 2 weeks (or more) later, its still there. I saw GP this morning, she fast tracked me into breast clinic for cancer on the fast track. She said she felt the 'lump', and that it needed investigating.

I am in an awful home situation, I live with my husband, though we are 'estranged' and so things are difficult at home. My 12 year old boy knows nothing as I naturally don't want to worry him.

I am glad the GP referred me so quickly, but am sincerely petrified... :-(  (As I am sure so many on here are..).

What can I expect to happen at the breast clinic? Will they ultrasound?

If its an enlarged lymph node (it feels lymph node like), does that indicate cancer has potentially spread?

I know I'm running away with my thoughts, but would appreciate any insight about lumpy armpits, breast clinics etc... 

Feeling rather alone today

Thank you to anyone able to help x


 

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    Hi Sha,

    Having had 2 bouts of breast cancer myself, I know just how scared you must be. We can often get very tearful and our emotions can be all over the place, so don't worry if this is happening to you too. This eases a little once you get a proper diagnosis.

    Your children are old enough to know that something is happening. Have you told them anything yet, or are you waiting until you get a diagnosis first?

    Try not to poke and prod the area. You don't want it to spread elsewhere.

    I shall be thinking of you on 19th and hope that all goes well. Can you take someone with you to your appointment? It is always helpful to do this especially when you expect to get results. We are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine 

    Aw that must have been so scary , are you in remission now ?  No I haven’t said anything to my children yet as the doctor seems to think it’s a cyst so I think it’s better to wait until I’ve had my appointment and any results and then go from there x

    I am trying to leave it alone it’s driving me mad as sometimes I can feel it and sometimes I can’t I just hope the 19th comes around fast . I am taking my partner with me I really want to speak to my mum but she lost my dad to lung Cancer so I don’t want to unnecessarily worry her until I know for sure . 

    Thank you for thinking of me 

    Shannon xx 

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    Hi Shannon,

    Yes, I am lucky enough to be in remission now, although I've had 3 scares with skin lesions in the past year. Fortunately, all of them proved to be clear after an excision biopsy.

    You are just as well to wait until you get your diagnosis, before telling your children - no point in worrying them uneccessarily, as I expect that some of them may be tied up with exams at the moment. I can understand the difficulty in telling your mum, when she has already lost your dad to lung cancer - this is such a cruel disease.

    I am glad to hear that you are taking your partner with you, although be prepared for the fact that you may not get any results at your first visit. This is usually a case of telling the consultant your symptoms, then havind an examination of your breasts. You may then have a mammogram, an ultrasound and a biopsy.

    It usually takes 1-2 weeks to get your results after that. The only way to be absolutely sure is with the results of the biopsy. Occasionally a consultant may advise that they do or don't think that cancer is present. Sometimes, if it is a cyst they can almost tell you straight away.

    Unfortunately, time seems to almost stand still on these occasions. Try to distract yourself by keeping busy over the next week.

    I shall be thinking of you on 19th and, keeping my fingers crossed for a favourable outcome.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine I’m so glad that you are in remission now that’s great I’m glad all the skin lesions came back clear it’s such a worry x 

    my doctor did say if it was a cyst or nothing to worry about they would tell me but if I need a biopsy I’d have to wait for the results and then I’ll think I’ll tell my mum and children once I know for sure either way . I really hope I don’t have to tell them any bad news . 

    I am trying my hardest to try and distract myself but i just keep crying every time I try to talk to my partner he says its nothing to worry about maybe that’s his way of not thinking about it .. thank you for your kind words they do help x 

    shannon x 

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    Hi Shannon,

    It depends on where the cyst is. sometimes they decide to remove them, even though they are benign, so don't be surprised if they suggest this. I found the crying totally out of character for me and was concerned about it, but it settled down once I started with treatment.

    Family members often try to assure you that all will be ok. This is sometimes as much for their own reassurancse as yours.

    I too sincerely hope that you don't have to give your family any bad news.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Hi Jolamine

    I’ve drove myself crazy this week and cried all the time I went to my hospital appointment and the consultant said she could feel abnormalities in my left breast and sent me to have a mammogram and an ultrasound scan and both came  back clear thankfully I’ve been so scared . They said it is a build up of tissue and my body is probably changing due to coming up to the menopause . 

    Just thought I would let you know and thank you so much for chatting to me and I hope you are well ️

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    Hi Snannon,

    I am so glad to hear that you have had a good outcome, following your tests this week and, have no further need to worry yourself silly.

    I hope that you won't forget to check your breasts from time to time to ensure that they continue to stay ok.

    I am so happy to hear this. Now you will have no need to be the bearer of bad news for your mum and children.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Thank you so much Jolamine that is the part I was the most upset about and I’m also so glad that it is good news ️Take care xxxx Shannon