Watching my son fade away

name is Charlotte.  My son has not passed yet, but it's coming soon. He is my baby of 3 children and will turn 26 on Thursday.  I always play a strong part, but daily I am falling apart. He is so thin his once muscular frame of 215lbs now is that of a small child. His body and eyes are dark yellow.  He hurts and lays down now most of his days. He barely eats. It is all so heartbreaking I just want to fix him and I cant..... I wonder obsessively every day, how much time do we have left. Its so hard to sleep or rat. I feel guilty to do either because he is suffering so. I just hate this 

  • Hi hunny ...

    This isn't fare .. it's crule ... And I've been on here over a year and answered many threads ... This one from you has been the sadest ever ... There are no words I can say because you are going through every loveing mum's worst nightmare ... I think of you every day .. and know there's so many of us that read your thread and are lost for words ...

    So all l can do is send you a loveing hug from one mum to another ... May he have a spiecal angel by his side right now .. though I think that spiecal angel is you xx xx

  • Hi Hun!

     

    I just want to hug you! Nothing else we can say!! You're so strong and full with love!!

  • My beautiful son left me last night

  • Dear Charlotte,

    I am so very very sorry. There is nothing I can say to ease your grief. It is an ongoing process and it's very hard. Nothing prepares you for the loss of a loved one, even when it's expected. I am 6 weeks after losing my husband, and although a different pain, I can understand how you feel. Your beautiful son is at peace now, no pain, no discomfort, no worries, so try to take a little comfort in that. You were an amazing Mum to the end, and you did all you could to help him on his journey. Try to look after yourself now, because you are probabley emotionally and physically exhausted. My heart goes out to you. 

    Take care, and much love to you. Heather. Xxx

     

  • Oh my.... like you part of me is feeling , he's out of pain ... part of me is heartbroken he's gone ... 

    But he was a part of you... but he's left a part of him right there in your heart ... where you'll keep him safe now ... a big hug from the bottom of my heart ...  Chrissie

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    Dear Charlotte,

    I am so sorry to hear that you have finally lost your precious son and send you my sincere condolences. I know that words will not help to bring him back. I lost my own brother when he was only 28, so I do have some idea of the pain in your heart. You will always keep a place there for him.

    Please remember that we are always here for you.

    Kind regards,

    Jolamine xx

  • Dear Dillysmom

    I am so so sorry to read your post. I wish i could say something that could help you but i cannot.  This is just the worst event that can happen to a mum.  I send you my love and I know your pain.xx

    leslie 

  • So sorry your son has now left you; I hope he went peacefully.  I cannot think of anything that will help you eother that he will always be a part of you and living in your heart.  I don't pretend to know why these things happen - like you (I am sure) I feel I would suffer a thousand deaths rather than see my son suffer.  But nobody could have done more than you.  I don't think there can be any meaning in what happens in our lives (apologies to those who think otherwise) otherwise why are the good people taken from us.  Please do keep in touch if this helps you and ensure you are getting the support you will need.  Annie

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    Hi. My name is Jan. My son is 43 and this week we were told he had colon cancer that has spread to his liver. He is my world and I am devastated and never felt pain like this before. He is my rock. I'm just lost

  • Hi J4n, 

    I just wanted to welcome you to the forum as I noticed you posted on a discussion that hasn't been active in 6 years so you may not hear back from anyone.

    I really hope that won't be the case, but if you don't receive a reply do feel free to start your own discussion as it will allow our more regular and active members to see your post and offer you their support and advice.

    I'm really sorry to hear about your son J4n. This must be an incredibly difficult time for you both so if either of you would like to talk things through with one of our cancer nurses, they're available on 0808 800 4040, Monday - Friday between 9a.m - 5p.m. They're very easy to talk to and will do all they can to support you and answer any other questions you may have at this time.

    We're thinking of you J4n and sending all our support your way.

    Kind regards,

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator