Lost my love of my life after 51 years

It is hard to have life without her I have taken care of her until her last  breath taken (Died at home of lung cancer) Fortunately I'm living in the country where the government takes care of their citizens whom are may need support. My life for ever changed I  try stay on my feet therefore  I keep busy I go to her greave evry morning laying a red coronation on her grave Fortunately I have wood shop in the basement where we made her cross for her grave  with my grand sons  that was a day after we buried her. Also I keep busy building a coffee table top which I have  promised her along with book shelf’s because the old ones are full with books she has read. I love her I miss her memory is in my heart I go for walk every morning with my dog which was her dog following her foot steps I must do that because that makes me bit stronger She had lymphoma 6 years ago then 6 years later she was diagnosed with lung cancer. In between she was volunteering for the Canadian cancer society by driving cancer patients for theirs cancer treatments She was the one whom proudly displayed her self as a Cancer survivor giving hope to her passengers. I will pick her routes in the near future. I seek support from local group of widowers  

  • Take care  of her as much as you can  Love her hug her do not let her out of your site In my hart there is big void I try to fill that woid with her memory and new ones. I spent a weekend  with my grand sons bowling goingn to soccer pratice walking eating wisting my wife grave playing poker and loving each other Your loved one is still  a live make every second count...I'm  Start to read book about grieving that may help  me a bit Next week i wil call cancer scocity about driving for them I will visit one of my friend son whom planing to take over his father bussiness at the same time i will share my taughts with his mother about my wife They are upset with me because i did not let then know about her passing I did want to have a big funeral we were wey private Friends calling one of them want to go on the net they are all wonderful Take care of  you

  • As time goes by the pain for losing my loved one is not going a way. Joining group of grieving people's help me to understand how to come closer to accept the fact she is go an to heaven.  Visting her grave twice a day giving  me bit of  relaxation. The ftiends of  grieving group of people  which i have privilege to joined is thankfully active some of them visited me in our home I visited them in their home. We will going out for lunch next week then we all get to gather once month for dinner. We can call each other on the phone get some support for our self. I keep bussy with grand sons (evry second  weekend). I'm also working on her bookshelfs that i have promised to her. Now I'm in the process of selecting  line drawing  whic my can you be used for decorating shelfs and the interiors of her drawers I miss her. I love her. Her memory is most important think for me for ever. 

  • Hello again.  I have read your posts around this forum since you began to post here and my heart always goes out to you.  I am so pleased you have found a group of people to help you and that you are filling your time.  Annie

  • To day is her birthday  I celebrated  this day  with her at her grave  side by laying 27 carnations on her grave My hart is very sad I missing her and I loving her may be more than before. Thereafter  I have lunch with my grieving friends that  helped me a bit. I my be travelling to europe to see my old friends whom currently  give me a lots of moral support   that is beside my grand sons. For Easter celebration I reserved a table for dinner with my beloved grandsons there we will celebrate theirs grandmother lifep