Hi Lou Lou, so sorry the news wasn't better for you and that you also had to have another biopsy. As you say, what a day. I too had grade 2 breast cancer and blanked out as you did when hearing the words before being given a bagful of leaflets and sent on my way. They won't be able to confirm the diagnosis totally until after the MRI so I will be thinking of you tomorrow and hope you get the results quickly so you can start treatment as soon as possible. The MRI isn't the most dignified of processes but is at least painless! Once the shock has worn off a little and you are able to start thinking it all through things will become a little easier, I promise. I hope that your hubby, and others that you choose to tell, will be a great help to you but please come back here anytime you want for advice, help or just to have a rant. This is a great place to do it! Take care of yourself and good luck for tomorrow  Sue xx

Hi lou lou 

I'm so sorry you got such bad news today and things didn't go as we had all hoped for you.I hope you have the support of the people closest to you now.

I'm so sorry lou lou,I can remember exactly word for word when I was told until I fazed out just as you did.

Please message me if you need to talk.I know that the next few days will be the worst for you while you battle with emotions.Then hopefully you will have a more definate plan to focus on.

If I can help in any way at all,I'm here.

Thinking of you Ness xxx

Hi Ness,

How did your pre-op assessment go today?

I had mine and it was grand - saw nurse for ECG, weight and height, then another nurse, back to original nurse to have blood pressure and bloods taken, then pharmacist, then doctor and finally another nurse. I am tired! X

ps I was told that there was some abnormality with my heart but it was nothing to worry about! So now I am worried.

Hi dunanat,

I'm tired too! I also have a tree to read in info...

I had bloods taken along with Mrsa swabs.My height and weight and BP.Then I seen the ipod lady lol..where I filled in a questionnaire about how I was feeling and my worries.

I then seen a nurse about the op and what happens on the day etc where I could ask questions.

I then seen my breast cancer care nurse who was amazing!!! And she gave me that tree I was on about.And a cushion to put under my arm after the op along with a free pampering session (can't be bad) etc etc..although it was fab and thoroughly thought out etc..I don't half feel nervous now..Oh and lastly had a chest xray. Xxx

My thoughts are with you.

If I can be of any help, please ask .X

Thanks everyone. I've got so many questions going around in my head at the moment and since I got back from the hospital I've just cried.  Ive woken up this morning in tears. It doesn't seem real, like this is all a really bad dream. I've got lots planned for 2016 and hope I can still do everything! 

Worried about the chemo as I really don't want to loose my hair. 

At the hospital this afternoon for the MRI scan.  Is anyone able to tell me if I get my results there or do you have to wait? X

Hi Lou Lou, I am not surprised that you are all over the place at the moment, you wouldn't be human if you weren't. I agree about it seeming like a bad dream but also at the same time as if it's somehow happening to someone else?Shock is a bizarre thing. I can only go by my own experience with the MRI. I did ask at the time (and would suggest that you do too) but was told that I would get the results when I next saw the consultant which in my case was 10 days or so. Having said that, my particular route though all this took the maximum allowed time at every blooming stage but I know of plenty of others who have had tests, results and started treatment far more quickly.The fact that your guys had already booked your MRI beforehand suggests that they are very much on the ball so it's likely that you will get your results sooner rather than later. Sorry, I know this doesn't actually answer your question but as we are all treated individually it is difficult to be exact about these things. All the best for this afternoon, will be thinking of you.  Sue xx

Hi lou lou,

I wish I could help with your question but I can't on that one I'm sorry.I didn't actually have an MRI scan.

It looks like sue has given her excellent advice though she has done what we're doing and is through the other side so that can help us see there is an end to all this.

I still find myself crying at various times/places during the day.It's only natural you have had a massive shock.I still feel like it's a bad dream too.I still hope that at every appointment they tell me it was a mistake.

I'm sorry I can't help with your question today,but I'm hoping we can help each other through the hard times as we go through each hurdle together. 

Thinking of you for today xx Ness xx 

Hi both, as Ness has said, I am much further down the road and am happy to help in any way I can. 

I saw my surgeon yesterday for my first follow up after the op and treatment and unfortunately he has confirmed that I have had a very strong reaction to the radiotherapy (continued swelling and pain), mainly due to being treated on both sides at once but also sheer bad luck so is referring me to the Pain Clinic to see if they can help at all.

Despite this ongoing issue, I have to say that the last 10 months or so have absolutely whizzed by with the initial stages you are going though at the moment being by far the worst from an emotional point of view. Once your treatments start it will begin to feel like something is being done and that you both can, and will, get there. I know it's easier said that done but hang on in there and carry on asking anything and everything as it come to you.  Take care  Sue xx

Hi All, thanks for your support everyone. 

I went for the MRI scan this afternoon which was ok. It lasted for 20 minutes which went quick. I had a dye injected into me which was harmless. I should have the results when I meet with the consultant in 10 days (although I need to call the hospital as they haven't actually given me a date)

I'm going to break the news to close family members tonight which I'm not looking forward to but now I know what I'm dealing with at least I can tell them for definite what's going on. It's just a shame it's New Years Eve but hey ho they need to know!

Emotions seems to be a bit more under control today but it's probably because I've been busy with the children etc. 

So,  no more updates from me for a while until I see the consultant in 10 days time.

It probably sounds like a daft question but do I just carry on a normal? I.e work, fitness classes etc? It feels like I'm in limbo waiting for the next appointment.

Lou Lou xx