Hello Neverimagined,

Welcome to the world of cancer treatments, well more like you are welcome to that world. Being not tolerant of many drugs and allergic to most ,imagine my delight upon hearing that not only would l receive chemo in tablet form,but the added delights of radiotherapy as well. Not content with just tablets pre-surgery, l then experienced the joys of infusion and tablet post surgery.To say the effects of which were truly Biblical would be lacking in widescreen technicolour, and l am no Ben Hur.

Chariot-less, as l dragged my sagging wilted frame up for yet another dash to you know where, well uncontrolled untimed stumble more like, one thought over-rode all others.If l was getting done over this hard,just imagining what my unwanted invader had stumbled into gave me the grim satisfaction that it had made a lousy choice of recipient this time round. 

That one thought was the dulll ight shining in the distance that kept me drawing towards a future that held a promise of dazzling sunlight when l could reach it. Of no use to my piggybacking unwelcome guest because it only lurked in dark unseen places, l knew if l stepped into that light l would do so alone.

Twelve years on the sunlight warms my face, my body has aqquired a chariot to get out and about, admittedly it has a few bent wheels and the brakes are slightly sticking on, but the smile l carry within me more than compensates for the inconveniences garnered along the way.,

l think what l am trying to convey is todays fight can pale into insignificance in tomorrows wins, that your horizons need to stretch further than a few weeks.When you are knee deep in the proverbial it can be difficult to see beyond that and so easy to accomodate negativity into your reasoning.

At first sight cancer looks like it affects your body, but its invidious qualities can have effects on your mind.Caught up with the aftermath of treatments it can be easy to assume you have no control, the drugs will do the physical kicking, but you still have control of your mind and how you focus that

Find your positives in your situation, they will be there hidden amongst the everyday negatives you are having to deal with, use them to furnish the room within your mind, giving less space to the nadgers that pull you down.

l in no way seek to diminish the struggle you find yourself in and acknowledge the place that you currently occupy, being previously a forty times a day man myself, and l am not referring to cigarettes, but seek to offer support in your hard climb back to health, and wish you you the very best in doing so,

David