Hi, 

I have Triple negative breast cancer. I’ve already had 12 paclitaxel 4 Carboplatin chemo. I have suffered quite a lot from various things going wrong like high blood pressure, low blood pressure when standing causing me to nearly faint, 3 blood clots along my picc line, my picc line coming out to far and having to redo the whole thing. Then the side effects from chemo. I then changed to EC every other week for 8 weeks but had my first Ec and quarter way in had an allergic reaction quite bad which meant I couldn’t continue on that day. It’s now coming up to my consultant appointment and I actually don’t want any more EC. I’ve literally had a mental breakdown because I can not take anymore. I’ve got surgery and radiotherapy to go as well, my breast care nurse said my consultant is keen for me to have the remaining chemotherapy, but I just can’t do it, I’m not living I’m existing, I can not do anything due to side effects and my fainting episodes. I go from my bed to the sofa every day and feel like I’m in a prison. I feel I’m going to be bullied into doing the treatment and my family are already saying if I don’t have it what will my daughters do if I’m not here anymore. I am in a massive black hole  

sorry for waffling on but I just need some reassurance or guidance