Hi all,

my dad is at the end of life with prostate Cancer that has spread to his bones and nerves on his spine.  He is now bed bound with a driver and has a cathator.  He has carers coming in and district nurses and he is still eating and drinking but has started with secretion and is suffering with this badly.  We are trying our best as a family to look after him, he has been in the hospice for pain management but we want to try and keep him at home.  He wakes all the time through the night and doesn't make sense half the time, but my mum is struggling with lack of sleep as it's full on through the day (both me and my sister work, and although I can work from home or there house I can't really help much). Me and my sister stay a few times a week to help out my mum.  We did have night carers coming in but had a bad experience with one so my mum didn't want them anymore.  Part of me hates to see my dad suffering but half of me doesn't want him to die.  I feel so helpless at the moment.  Also have no idea how long he has left.  It's says once secretion sets in it's usually a few days but he has been struggling a week or so with it and he still has his colour.  I feel so alone.  My family don't want to discuss death or want to know time frames.  He said today he wishes he was dead.  My mums at rock bottom and is exhausted.  Me and my sister are trying to see to our family and be there for them (my son is 6).  Is there anybody out there struggling like this as at the moment I feel so alone and absolutely heartbroken .

Thank you for reading.