Hi cocopops, I know that there is nothing I can say to make you feel better but as someone who has had three cancer scares myself, lost lots of friends and my uncle to cancer and has had to watch my dad fight cancer for the last five years I can honestly say I think that just by opening up to us you are already doing something constructive. That alone is a good thing. I can't imagine what it must feel like, and I won't pretend to understand, but it helps to talk about these things. I also lost my mum recently too, not to cancer but to heart disease, which wasn't even her fault, however it was her outlook that truly amazed me. Despite her difficulties she lived life as fully as she could in her final months. And she always had a smile on her face. Nothing could have prepared me for what has happened but I know that she loved life. My point is, you're still here, still breathing, still able to keep active. So do what you can. Don't force yourself, just take small steps, and you will get through it.
i have multiple myeloma and fine it so very hard to try and keep positive. Your message really does put things into perspective. Everyone on this site is so kind and supportive and that in itself I find so helpful.
Do the thing that make you happy, think about living, talk to family and friends, laugh, cry, shout.
I know what your family could be going though,(one minute your up and then down its like a being on a rollercoast) because both my grown up children have just been diagonsed with cancer this year.
