It wasnt deleted, I think that the moderators had locked the post, maybe they were concerned that you might have been upset with the conversation about God & heaven etc?  As I said hopefully Blue-girl and Jenny will pop back and chat again, Blue-girl certainly will understand the situation that you are in.

By typing this, they should get an email and hopefully come back to chat some more, regardless of beliefs, its always good to be able to chat to people that understand the situation that you are in.

If you wanted to post a reply to either of them, just scroll up to their last message and hit the reply and type what you want to say to them. 

I hope that you are as comfortable and pain free as you can be.

Best Wishes

Annie