Hi, this is second post i've made on here. My dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer which has spread to his lymph nodes and liver. i'm 22 and have started my teacher training course whilst caring for my dad. This morning I had to ring for an ambulance as my dad was having extreme difficulty breathing followed with heavy nose bleeds. He started chemo a couple of weeks ago and didn't have many side effects other than a sore mouth followed with oral thrush. He is incredibly thin and had lost so much of his strength. The chemo is for palliative means but i'm worried he won't be able to handle many more treatments. He has repeatedly refused to know his prognosis, refused to fill out his care choices booklet supplied by the hospice. I thought he was dealing with this reasonably well until the social worker came round and he actually told her he is denial. i'm unsure of what to do as I don't know his prognosis and i'm struggling to care for him and balance my teacher training. i'm finding myself exhausted as he rings me in the night when he's worried or needs medication (i'm happy to do this for him and i'm glad he feels my support) however, i'm worrying how long i can continue this especially as he is denial and refuses to have any discussion surrounding end of life care. I don't dare ask what sort of funeral he wants. I'm not quite sure why i'm posting this but i think i just need to get it out of my head.