I’m struggling so much , on 12th February my beautiful mum lost her battle to pancreatic cancer. I say battle because it truly was, it stripped her of everything she had. I is the hardest thing I have ever dealt with, to watch you mum suffer so much and there is nothing you can do to help except be there. Life without her is just awful, she was my mum and my best friend, I spoke to her 6/7 times a day. I love her so much . I’m not young I’m 48 yrs old have 2 kids but I still can’t bear her not being with us.

everyone tells me time is a healer, I don’t believe it. How can life ever be happy again. I watch my poor dad struggling too, they were inseparable . All I feel is pain and sorrow and hate at pancreatic cancer, your evil, you don’t show up the majority of the time till it’s too late and then you make people suffer and strip them of all their dignity!