I don’t know if you will read this comment. I couldn’t stop myself from replying. I had my mother diagnosed with Pancreatic cancer on 14 July 2018 and she left us on 23 March 2019. I delivered my first baby on 11 jan 2018. Just 6 months later I got this diagnosis for my mom and 1.5 years later lost her. Life seems to b very cruel now. She was a wonderful person and everything just took a toll on my own health. I can’t find a way out. I was extremely close to her and she was very involved in my life. Did things get any better for you? I don’t really know what to do but I do want things to get better for the sake of my daughter. 

Hi All, 

Thank you to each and every single one of you who took the time out to read my post an reply. It is such a kind thing for you to do and in times of need somtimes a strangers words can be of comfort. To be honest with you, I had almost forgot I had written this post over 2 year ago but somwehre in my emails I had gone through all the comments I had back. 

 Life has changed so much for me and I am hoping whilst I go through certain things it may help some of you.

People say time is a healer and it sure is, I can say the pain I felt 2 years ago I no longer feel it now. I still feel pain when I see moms and thier kids togeher. I dont think that feeling ever will go away but you learn to accept it and cope with it.That does not mean you cant get sad over it, because you can no matter how long its been.  Life hits us in ways we do not know, sometimes good and sometimes bad. We fail to underatand why things happen when they do but we need to try our best too. I strongly belive now my mum was too good for this world, such a lovely, honest and kind hearted human and for that reason this world was not enough. Selfishly I wish she was still here as everyboy needs thier mom but I rather her be at peace then in pain and that is the way I last saw her. It hurts like hell, the past two years I have gone from being sad, depressed, angry, lonely and sad. I still feel majoirty of those emotions but just know its OK to feel them. You are not alone, you carry on feeling the feelings you need too and get them out of your system. DO not let anybody tell you any different. I look at pictures and vids and sometimes I laugh and sometimes I cry. I think all the things she is going to miss and has missed the past few years but I do believe she is in my heart and I can feel her. Time is a healer and I can promise you, you are not alone.

I wish you all well, if anybody ever needs a chat, pls reach out. 

All the best x

Our mother left this earthly rock on the 15th of January 2020. She was diagnosed with secondary cancer on the 13th of December. What is difficult is the fact she was diagnosed so late (and previously misdiagnosed by her local surgery - it seems they do not take cancer history into account) & waiting times in this country are unacceptable. 
We, and she, had two weeks to come to terms with the fact nothing could be done. I feel that had she been living in her native country of the Netherlands, she would still be with us today, even if only a bit longer.
She was accepting of her fate, however, and was at peace in her heart & mind. She believed she would return to "the source" and we can sense her energy & presence around us. It's very difficult, but I talk to her and keep the memory alive. Being supportive as a family is a great help, so for anyone reading, keep chilled and stick together if possible and make sure you are in touch with Macmillan, absolutely wonderful people!