He has. It will eventually take my life. The average life with my type of cancer can be 19 years but I had it a couple of years before they found it and it's all ready been a year since I found out. Time sure does fly bye. They told me I will have bunches of things that I can try once it comes back and also that in 10 years he told me they could have more medications out that might buy me an extra 10 years on top of the 19 years they gave me. So far everything is working great but I know it could be back everytime I go in for a PET scan. It is what it is and I am just making the best of what I have now. The worst is getting the stupid PET scans every 6 months. I know eventually there going to say it's back so right now I'm just living life day by day trying to soak up the special times with my youngest boy and trying to make sure my family spends time together ever chance we get. I bought us Roger Water tickets for the August 18, 2017 show at Auburn hills. It should be a great time. I bought front row tickets so it should be cool. Also were traveling this summer to see my wifes dad who was diagnosed with prostate cancer the same week I was diagnosed so were going to try and spend a week with him in Washington state, USA. It's going to be a busy summer that's for sure. Also my oldest son just graduated high school today but my younger one weighs heavy on my mind. I wish we would have had him earlier but again I'm making the best of it. How are you holding out? It's very hard losing your other half and I feel for you but make the best of  the time you have left. Maybe visit somewhere you have always wanted to go or do something you thought you might never do. Take a risk and get out there and enjoy yourself. We only get one run at it so make it count. Cancer or not get up and get moving around. You take care of yourself and message me back when you get a chance. It really helps talking to folks that can relate to the same feelings I'm going through. This site has really helped me. I wanted to let you know I really appreciate you sharing with me and this site really got me out of a bad slump I was in. Thanks and take care.......................................Woody  

Hi Woody. I totally agree, this site really does help. It sounds like you have your priorities right, spending quality time with your family and making plans - don't stop doing that! We always wanted to visit Washington State, do the West coast up to Seattle but I don't think that's a trip I could do on my own. I get what you're saying though and have been wondering whether I could take the plunge and do a river boat cruise up the Danube on my own Maybe in time.

I'm having a difficult time at the moment and I don't think it has fully sunk in; I think subconsciously I'm using my anger at my selfish self absorbed sister in law to deflect some of the pain. I have moments when I feel overwhelmed and feel a scream building inside me. I usually distract my self, maybe I should let it happen but I'm terrified of losing myself to the pain. On a positive note it's half term here in the UK this week and I'm looking after my granddaughter for three days. Tomorrow we're making chocolate crispy cakes which is always fun when she starts spreading the sprinkles and marshmallows!

What's next for your eldest son after high school? Your youngest - you're going to see him graduate high school too and grow into a young man that you are proud of! You're right about time passing so quickly and before you know it you'll have grandchildren running around and maybe you'll be making chocolate crispy cakes

Take care and stay healthy, Sue

Really sorry about your loss, i know exactly what your going through as i lost my wife to gallbladder cancer after fighting it for 16 months aged 55 in April this year we were married 38 yrs. The thing that helped me a bit was to get some counselling for grief, also think about what your husband would say while he is watching over you,he would not want you to be like that. In my experience Its like someone ripping your heart out, most days i cry, but i think its good to release the tears, you never get over it you just learn to cope a bit better as time goes on, so keep your chin up and celebrate your loved ones life. I really hope this post helps even a little bit. 

Feeling your pain.

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