Thanks so much for your reply, hope your Cruse appointment goes as well as it can. Mentally and emotionally I seem to be getting worse I can't comprehend how I will continue to cope, never know what's round the corner but I could still be on this earth another 50-60 years and that long without my beautiful mum destroys my heart. Agree with everything you say re people saying better place and what not, I know they are trying to help but unless they have gone though this exact situation it's hard to listen without thinking they really have no idea xx

Thanks so much for your reply, It's so hard bumping into people I am deliberately trying to avoid anywhere I could possibly bump into people, I'm very much in the pushing everyone away mode at the moment. This is just so hard isn't it, people have set up a tribute Facebook account for my mum and my heart wrenches every time I get a notification saying someone has posted something, there is an outpouring of love for her but I hate to say it doesn't make it any easier, they will post their nice words and then go about their normal day and I'm over here struggling to breathe every second, my every thought. It's lovely that you have children, I'd love to have a little daughter one day, thinking of you xx

It's still really early days for you.  Do what you have to do when you want to . There are certainly no rules. I know what you mean about pictures . The facebook page set up , people probably thought it would help. I have days when I can't even look at a photo of us together.  I've gone from being strong doing an event for The Christie and raising £1700 to an emotional mess. Yes I should be being strong for my children,  which I am infront of them but inside I feel like my heart has been ripped out.  Thinking of you and take one day at a time xx 

My mum passed away on 26th December 2016 at the age of 53 to Secondary Breast Cancer that had spread to her bones and found out it had spread to part of her brain in November 2016. I am 27 years old. 

When we found out on 14th November 2016 that it had spread to part of her brain.. Everything happened so quickly. We watched her deteriorate within a month of recieving the news to her dying in her sleep in the early hours of Boxing day. We were absolutely shocked that she'd been fighting since 2009 to be suddenly taken from us in a heart beat. 

Her funeral was 10th February 2017 and now we try to move on the best we can. Me and my mum were best friends, very similiar to yourself. I don't have a lot of friends, it used to be just me and my mum, we did everything together. There's this massive hole in my life now and I have bad days where i feel i can't cope but i can assure you, you will start to have good days and do not feel bad for having them either. I find I have better days now 2 months on from her passing but I do still miss her so so much.

I understand your feeling of anger when people talk about losing there loved ones at an older age. I guess you must feel like you've been robbed of time with your mum, I feel the same way. I also find myself feeling jealous of those around me who still have their mums.. You are in no way a difficult person, everyone copes differently. If you ever need a chat, send me a message and i'll be happy to listen. 

Take care xx

Hi

My dad has terminal cancer and I know what you mean about people sending text messages etc. One of my friends text me saying I am so so so so so so so so sorry. This just upset me even more cause I then thought why my family. We are such a small family as it is

My beautiful brave mum passed away 1st of December 2016, she was 65. She had pancreatic cancer. These last 3 months have been absolute agony, the heartache is indescribable.

i have a 10 month old son who my mum absolutely adored and when i look at him and know he's missing out on a wonderful nanny it breaks my heart.  He crawled properly across the lounge the first time today and all i wanted to do was call mum. Thats what kills me, the no more phone calls and the missing part is horrendous.  I visited mum ag least every other day but spoke on the phone at least twice a say so at the minute i cant get my head around the fact im not going to do this ever again

As ive read in previous posts i too get so jealous and angry when i see older mums/ nans with there children /grandchildren.  I think why you here and my mum isnt?  my girlfriend and most of my friends still have both parents i always think  god your so bloody lucky!!

Mothers days coming up and im dreading it....