Hello Matthew.c

So much thought for others when you are both going through so much, thank you for your kind and comforting words, means so very much. 

You are so right, I tell myself everyday how lucky I was to be my husbands wife, to share the years we had in life with together.  We will always have that.  I too believe in all you said.  I know my husband is in a better place, that was something we spoke about in his last days and it gave him a lot of comfort.  I truly believe my husband is watching over us all too, so many times I have had signs, always the same sign.  We had a pond in our garden, one day long before my husband was ill a very large beautiful dragon fly settled on a lilly flower in the pond.  Never saw one like that again in the garden, until the morning after my husband had passed away.  I pulled up the kitichen blind the following morning and there in the garden was a huge beautiful dragon fly.  I went out into the garden with my daughter we stood side by side next too the pond the dragon fly flew around the garden then came to me and fluttered for about 10 seconds in front of my face then too my daughter stood by me and did the same, then flew around the garden one more time and then left.  I went to Canada with a friend, we went for a trip along a river, as I sat on the little boat a dragon fly flew above my head.  When I got off at the end of the trip and one hr 15 minutes later a dragon fly flew above my head.  So many of the cards sent to me after my husband died had dragon flys on them.  Life is not the same he is missed beyond words but I try to live for him my daughter, grandsons, friends and for me.  I take him with me where ever I go, whatever I do.  The strength and love he gave to me helps me to carry on and the belief that one day I will be with him again.  The morning before my husband passed, he looked at me and said its time, I could only hug him and tell him how much I love him and will always love him, I asked will he keep a place for me,his reply too was "always".  It then dawned on me several hours after he had passed, that it was his dads birthday, I knew his dad was waiting for him and why my husband had said it was time.  With my heart broken that too helped me to think that he was not alone.

I wish with all my heart that you and your beautiful wife were not on this journey at this time.  You are right, we need to celebrate all our memories to keep us close to our loved ones, until one day we will reunite.

I send you both much love take care xx

This forum has given me so much help too over the years, never alone, sadly too many people going through so much, but it does help you to know your not alone.

God bless xx