Hello Matthew.c

I am so so sorry for all your wife and yourself are going through.  Its hard to find the words.  It breaks my heart.  Your love for your wife and each other shines through your pain.  You are with her being strong for her now, even though you feel your not.  I am thinking of you both.  

I lost my husband my soul mate, aged 60.  It will be 8 years on the 10th September.  Your words resonated and touched me so much.  My husband was my everthing, he was strong, much stronger than me.  We too had dreams, we wanted to spend a winter on the Canarian Island, Lanzarote where we holidayed so many times.  We wanted to move to the Island too.  Like you we had so many dreams, so much to do.  We had our first grandchild, he was 6 months old.  Its hard knowing how much he has missed and how much our now, grandsons have missed out on with their very special grandad.  it broke his heart knowing he would never see his grandson grow up.  I know we were lucky to have our grandson and for my husband to hold and love him, cherish him with the time he had.  

No one can take away what we had and I talk to my grandsons often about grandad and they blow kisses to the cloud and tell him they love him.

Cancer is so very cruel.  I had the support of our daughter, my sister in law and his aunts and uncles and friends.  Our local Hospice were amazing could not have got through without them.

I hope you have support to help you and your much loved wife through this very difficult and sad time.  Thinking of you xx

Hi Leigh it's 3,58 in the morning I have woken up thinking about my beautiful baby girl on her own, the house echos without her by my side laying in bed.

I have just read your reply and it touched me so much and knowing that I'm not on my own help the pain so thank you ️..

The love between you both is beautiful which makes it harder I know but God and heaven is beautiful and I know he will be watching and he's loving you all from the other side, I know he is also watching your beautiful grandchild grow he is always with you, I know my beautiful baby girl will always be by my side especially when i need her, i asked her to pop in to say hi from time to time, she smiled smiled through her tears and pain and  said always!

I keep asking myself why! And how did we get here, I keep reminiscing of happy times we had and I feel so happy knowing that we had such a beautiful life together and special one like you both had so we have to celebrate now evey memory we have because that is connection we have with our love ones on the other side, 

Thank you so much for sharing your story of how much love both had and still have 

Enjoy the rest of your life watching and loving your grandchild grow into a beautiful person likes yourselves and knowing one-day we both will join our love ones again ️ 

Hello Matthew.c

So much thought for others when you are both going through so much, thank you for your kind and comforting words, means so very much. 

You are so right, I tell myself everyday how lucky I was to be my husbands wife, to share the years we had in life with together.  We will always have that.  I too believe in all you said.  I know my husband is in a better place, that was something we spoke about in his last days and it gave him a lot of comfort.  I truly believe my husband is watching over us all too, so many times I have had signs, always the same sign.  We had a pond in our garden, one day long before my husband was ill a very large beautiful dragon fly settled on a lilly flower in the pond.  Never saw one like that again in the garden, until the morning after my husband had passed away.  I pulled up the kitichen blind the following morning and there in the garden was a huge beautiful dragon fly.  I went out into the garden with my daughter we stood side by side next too the pond the dragon fly flew around the garden then came to me and fluttered for about 10 seconds in front of my face then too my daughter stood by me and did the same, then flew around the garden one more time and then left.  I went to Canada with a friend, we went for a trip along a river, as I sat on the little boat a dragon fly flew above my head.  When I got off at the end of the trip and one hr 15 minutes later a dragon fly flew above my head.  So many of the cards sent to me after my husband died had dragon flys on them.  Life is not the same he is missed beyond words but I try to live for him my daughter, grandsons, friends and for me.  I take him with me where ever I go, whatever I do.  The strength and love he gave to me helps me to carry on and the belief that one day I will be with him again.  The morning before my husband passed, he looked at me and said its time, I could only hug him and tell him how much I love him and will always love him, I asked will he keep a place for me,his reply too was "always".  It then dawned on me several hours after he had passed, that it was his dads birthday, I knew his dad was waiting for him and why my husband had said it was time.  With my heart broken that too helped me to think that he was not alone.

I wish with all my heart that you and your beautiful wife were not on this journey at this time.  You are right, we need to celebrate all our memories to keep us close to our loved ones, until one day we will reunite.

I send you both much love take care xx

This forum has given me so much help too over the years, never alone, sadly too many people going through so much, but it does help you to know your not alone.

God bless xx

Hi Leigh thank you so much for your sweet lovely message, I watched my beautiful baby girl die in my arms today at 15,28, she passed so beautiful and peacefully 

I feel numb I don't know what to think or say 

She's was in so much pain bless her but I know now she is resting in peace 

You both have such a lovely beautiful relationship and memories are everything take care bye bye for now 

Xxx

Your message is so beautiful and the dragonflies were sent to you again how beautiful Leigh thank you for sharing that xx

Matthew.c  I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful wife, she is suffering no more.  My heart breaks for you and all you are going through.  No words Matthew.

Thinking of you both. Please take care of you.  God bless.  Bye for now xx

Thank you that's very sweet of you

Yes it's so hard I miss her so much 

Thank you again xx