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So, this is the first time since diagnosis that I've felt able to join one of these forums. I have stage 2 cancer, and am currently going through treatment of radio 5 days a week and chemo 1 day a week. It's been ok, although I'm terribly depressed. I feel like crying a lot, and not really for any specific reason (apart from the obvious). I can't get my head around that I have cancer still. In many ways my life is still normal. I like to go out with friends, drink wine, work. But sometimes doing these normal things just make me miserable, because they are all done in the context of having something completely not-normal - cancer - in the background. I wonder if there will be a time when I feel not ill-at-ease anymore. Sorry - just venting.
I feel quite isolated in the small village I live in. I've not met another young woman who is going through this - and I also feel like a fool for getting this disease. I feel it's my fault. I don't feel like a whole person anymore, and some days, when treatment makes my stomach hurt and when my arms are black and blue from failed attempts to get a needle into my veins, I find it hard to feel positive.
Anyway, I thought I'd vent. Because I don't feel I have anywhere else to do so. Anyone who wants to vent or send positive vibes, I'd love to hear from you.
Message was edited by: kathyheart
Aww Kathy, my heart goes out to you and lots of positive vibes are being sent your way. Can I just say first, you've come to the right place, almost everyone is going through this or has someone close going through this, what are the odds, 1 in 3 will get cancer? You're clearly still in shock and the enormity of it is finally hitting you, you can vent, scream, cry and shout on this forum, we all know and understand exactly how you're feeling. The fact that you're so young to is another added blow and it will also make you infertile, have you been told that as a definite?
As far as support is concerned you will probably know by now there's plenty out there and you will have allocated a team, the cancer nurses are there to help so don't ever feel you can't ask questions, tell them you're worried sick etc. Read the posts on this forum and you'll gain a lot of knowledge. Just take one baby step at a time and come back here whenever you need, make it a diary, write it all down and get it off your chest. If you have any concerns there's a 'Ask the Nurses' forum which you've no doubt found. Don't look too hard into the future and remember one thing, what you have on your side, is youth, health and strength.
Don't try and be 'brave' for anyone Kathy, or sunny or shining just for them, there will be days when you're not feeling 'up there' so on those days, be gentle with yourself and on the 'up days' do whatever it is that makes you genuinly happy. Come back often and talk XXX
It's good to see you have already received a warm welcome from Bobbie. You definitely aren't alone. You are welcome to come here and vent anytime you want. Others here will understand what you are going through. There is a discussion from another member who posted here in March in similar circumstances to you. You could introduce yourself on this thread if you think it might help.
What lovely replies above, and they are much appreciated. I needed a 'virtual hug' I guess and am also feeling a lot more upbeat after a successful 3rd round of chemotherapy yesterday. Next week my brachytherapy begins, which is daunting, but which I'm trying not to worry about. Thank you also for directing me to other posts and the 'Ask the Nurses' section. I hadn't actually noticed that part, so it will be helpful.
All the best,
The last 4 weeks have been a nightmare. I have been proded and poked, scanned, biopsy's taken, bloods and then 2 weeks ago I was told I have stage 2b cervical cancer @ 32 like yourself never thought I would get at this age. Due to have my planning c t scan in brighton on wednesday, Like yourself I will be having chemo, internal & external radiotherapy, and i also will be infertile after the treatment that starts on 8th August, not having any children this has been hard to come to terms with.
My mum was diagnosed in 2006 and after the treatment she had 3 years struggling with bladder and blood loss that they gave her an hysterectomy last year, the worst part is that having been there throughout all my mums treatment its hard not to be scared at what is coming, having seen it all first hand and how it will effect me.
I was just googling stage 2b cervical cancer and your post game on page 1, it just seemed to feel like I had written myself. I hope you are ok after your treatment. X
I am 35 and also stage 2 cervical cancer. I have had 2 rounds of chemo with 1 more to come. I then start my radio in August followed by 4 internal radio treatments. It is so scary. I have a 12 year old daughter. The chemo has knocked me for six. I had a lymphnode show up on scan so they wanted to take care of that with chemo first and control my bleeding as I had been bleeding since Feb. Hence the chemo first. I was originally to have 4 lots of chemo but my consultant says now only 3 as this will be enough. The lymphnode was enlarged but didn't glow red. It is a relief to say the least.
We all seem to be at a similar stage with treatment and diagnosis so I hope you dont mind me putting my post on.
I hope you are both well. Lets beat this horrid disease. xxx