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royrobert 14 posts since
Aug 11, 2009
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Dec 12, 2010 1:53 PM

My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Just to let you know that even though I haven't been on the site very often, that my very precious husband Roy slipped silently away from me on the 26th November 2010 and I am totally devasted, how do I live how do I breathe, he was such a wonderful man, I have had so many beautiful tribites paid to him, he was one in a million, and I know everybody says he is now at peace and will be well again, and I understand that, but I need to see him just once more the pain I have inside is horrendous, Please help me I am so shattered by this I knew one day it would happen but a the same time to me Roy was invincible.  How do I go on I just need one more cuddle please try to help me.

 

Love

Gillian xx

anglenet 12 posts since
Dec 10, 2010
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1. Dec 12, 2010 4:49 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Dear Gillian,

 

My wife passed away very suddenly on 29th November therefore I feel qualified to reply to you sad post.

 

My Janet was my life and my very best friend, I miss her terribly but trust that she is in a far better place where nothing can hurt her ever again, we who are

left behind and are feeling unable to cope must take some degree of comfort for the time we have had with the one who we loved so dear, now that they are

gone we must respect their memory and carry on, no matter how difficult, as that it what they would have wanted.

 

I think I know exactly how you feel and my heart goes out to you, Gillian,

 

Alan

harryeleri 1,220 posts since
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3. Dec 12, 2010 5:17 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

I have no words to help you as words are inadequate at this time but I wish you peace soon and the strength to make sense of this terrible time.The love that you had will never go.it will always live on in your heart.

Good luck to you and everyone in your awful position/

Rose xxx

harryeleri 1,220 posts since
Apr 28, 2010
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4. Dec 12, 2010 5:29 PM in response to: anglenet
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

My deapest sympathy to you Alan.I hope you find the strength in your love for your dear wife to support you through this.You cannot hold her in your hand but you will always hold her in your heart.

So much good luck for your future

Rose xxx

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5. Dec 12, 2010 5:39 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Hi Gillian

I am so sorry to hear of your loss and can only imagine what you are going through as I lost my brother to bowel cancer last week. We had always been close but it is a different closeness to that of husband and wife. I sat with my brother on the weekends my sister in law needed a break and we talked about him dying, which was instigated by him as I wasn't brave enough to raise it.

Needless to say we cried together and told each other how we really felt. I spoke to him for the last time ten days ago but saw him every other day and had the privilege to be with him along with my two sisters on the evening he died. Like you I needed a cuddle as it was always my brother who made things better but the last weekend I sat with him and he was conscious he told me that if I ever needed him just close my eyes and think of him  which I do.

 

I can only hope that you find comfort in your friends and family and when you need to be alone this website is amazing as you can 'talk' to people without them interrupting or being embarrassed by your tears. Sometime it has taken me three hours and a box of tissues to say what I want to but it is worth it.

 

So I am sending you a hug and to let you know I shall be thinking of you.

 

Take care

 

Shelley x

sazzbo 5 posts since
Nov 12, 2009
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6. Dec 14, 2010 9:12 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Dear Gillian,

 

I do know a little of how you feel - my husband aged 53 died on Nov 22nd with me holding him and although we had known for two weeks that nothing could be done, I still ache for more time. I think there will always be things we want to say and to feel their arms wrapped around us. I still can't accept it and keep turning to tell him something - even something someone has written in the In Sympathy card. It is a physical and emotional pain that only people who have lost someone they love can understand. I torture myself that if I'd forced him to see a doctor years ago they might have saved him or worry that I might not have been kind and supportive enough when he was ill. I wouldn't let anyone else look after him when he was discharged from hospital and I know it mattered to him to be home with our daughters. But I feel desperate sometimes and the loneliness is almost unbearable. Friends and family are lovely but they don't fill the gap.

Waking up in the morning is so painful, and getting the evening meal ready for the children - when I should hear him walk through the door.  I do so feel for you.

 

Sx

tinks1412 58 posts since
Nov 14, 2010
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7. Dec 14, 2010 10:14 PM in response to: sazzbo
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Gillian, my heart goes out to you.  My father-in-law (who we adored) died 3 months ago (not from cancer but from a heart attack masked by complications from diabetes - but had colon cancer 12 years previous & we always felt he was on borrowed time)

 

My mum-in-law fell to pieces initially and as a family we all rallied round to help in the first weeks - there is no standard plan for how you cope & get through this.  All I can say is that your close family & friends will just be waiting for you to say you need help or support.  Even simple things like sorting shopping/rubbish/recycling, or making phonecalls, people close to you will be only too happy to help - you may not feel it now, but it will make a difference.  This time of year is especially cruel, we are just closing ranks this year - I haven't even sent xmas cards - our true family & friends will understand.

You will find lots of support on here, please keep checking in.

 

Best wishes

 

Tinks

tinks1412 58 posts since
Nov 14, 2010
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9. Dec 18, 2010 10:29 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Gillian, just wanted to check in and say, I know life is almost unbearable for you at the moment (somehow you go through the motions of 'normal life'. )

 

We are all thinking of you on here.

 

Tinks x

missisz 27 posts since
Dec 19, 2010
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10. Dec 19, 2010 7:54 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

I am so, so sorry and my heart goes out to you. I lost my darling husband in January and my heart is still aching. I loved him so much, and always will. Look after yourself and know that the thoughts of everyone on this forum are with you.

jadziadax 601 posts since
Dec 28, 2009
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11. Dec 20, 2010 7:56 AM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Dearest Gillian

 

I am so very, very sorry to read the news about your wonderful husband Roy. This is a cruel disease for all involved, and I really wish I had a magic wand to make it all go away.

 

You will be in my thoughts and prayers at this difficult time, and I pray you find the strength to face each day as it comes.

 

With kindest regards

jadziadax

x

96 posts since
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12. Dec 20, 2010 4:05 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

Gillian

 

I know exactly what you are going through.  It is now nearly two years since my husband died.  It hurts so much and the hurting stays but just changes as time goes past.  You need time to cry, to think, to recall and time for you.  Don't try to fill your days to ease the pain the pain is natural it is all part of grieving.  I wish my husband could come back and given me a cuddle.  Sometimes I dream and the dreams are so real but then I wake up and remember and the feelings all come flooding back.  I'm here if you want to talk.

 

June

candy 253 posts since
Feb 8, 2011
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13. Feb 12, 2011 7:15 PM in response to: royrobert
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

hi gillian im so so sorry to hear of your loss since i am looking after my husband whom has terminal cancer it all started 2006 when he had part of his lung removed due to cancer,then august 2010 my husband developed severe headaces that resulted in the cancer was back within his brain.they removed the growth then done a pet scan only to be told the cancer is in his other lung,also chest-wall.also lympth nodes its terminal nothing can be done its a matter of time,most days hes so very tired sometimes withdrawn.hes only 54yr old.  im like you if you dont mind me saying so.weve been married 34yrs we have done almost everything together my family are all grown up married with kids of there own i cry every day as like you i cant imagine life without my husband he was my carer since im disabilled iv had majour back surgery done i also suffer from c.o.p.d. emphesma within my lungs whats left to live for im hurt angry as to why.i send you my sincere condolences my prayers thoughts are with you.

Christabel 2 posts since
Feb 16, 2011
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14. Feb 17, 2011 10:29 PM in response to: candy
Re: My beautiful husband Roy has passed away

I know how you feel too.  It's a year next Friday since my husband Andy passed away.  We had been married 32 years and were soulmates.  All those "important dates" have passed now, just the anniversary of his death to get through.  On Valentines Day last week I woke up and went downstairs convinced for a moment that he would somehow have found a way to send me a Valentines Card.  I was cross with him for not being able to arrange this.  Now that a year has passed for me the only comfort I can give you is that each day does get a little easier especially with the help of family and friends.  Nothing will ever be the same again but I hope that I can make some sort of a future for myself with happiness in it.  Grandchildren one day will be something to look forward to.  Life is so unfair,

 

Christine

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